Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @8:07 PM
miche was told today that miche was a ferrero rocher instead of a kantos (well at least miche thinks it is spelt that way) but not a lint. miche told that it was quite a funny metaphor and found an empty ferrero roundnoir on her table. so miche proceeded to take the roundnoir box (dark chocolate rocher and slightly more expensive) to the person who said that she was a rocher and said "i am not a rocher, i am this!" well not in an angry way, cause miche was terribly amused by the comment.
somehow everyone thinks that miche is tired and down and everything these few weeks. truth be told, miche thinks that intellectually, she has had enough of the nonsense that has been happening and somehow she doesnt think that she is able to take the nonsense on an intellectual level anymore.
for the longest time miche has always known that she needs to compartmentalise her emotions and thoughts in order to survive. miche knows that it sounds weird and very strange and complex, but that is how miche has learnt how to deal with life and survive. and now this compartmentalising is the only thing that is keeping miche going but somehow soon these compartments are going to collapse into one. miche has too much anger against the world and against everyone.
miche needs to move to another planet, cause she is just tired.
i was reminded once again the other day of how you insulted and made me feel so small 3 years back. the damage you have done is more than you can ever imagine, so dont send emails and requests for friends, or even try to pretend that nothing is wrong. that period of my life that 6 short months is the one period i want to forget and yet know that i should never ever forget. because you taught me through your actions, that i am worth more than all you have ever treated me as and i should never be allowed to be treated as such ever again. so just leave and take everything and everyone who will remind me of you away and stay away.
Friday, May 15, 2009 @8:39 AM
miche is sitting in the office just wondering why is it that people can never shrug off some of what miche considers the most restraining conventions of society.
years ago, miche's friend's mother told her that it was imperative that we should all get married because that is the only way that a woman can fulfill her destiny. miche was 12. At that time, miche was like, hmmm maybe that can be true, but then as miche grew up and became older, she got to thinking about why is that marriage is perhaps one of the most defining characteristics of being a woman. why should that be so. anyway, this morning in the car, miche was told something that make her think again.
why do people impose their values of marriage on others? okay fine, maybe impose is too strong a word but you know what miche means. anyway, miche is too lazy to continue. later.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @9:09 AM
today is the 13 of May, joshie clark kent hiew's birthday. miche cant believe that joshie hiew is 21 today, officially that is. miche was 19 when miche met joshie and now joshie is 21. that is long. haha =) anyway, happy 21st joshie hiew from all of us who are crazy, maniac, insane but still ultimately fun loving, loyal and best people to be friends with. yeah, all of us except, miche doesnt know where cheam and jake went, well val was takin the picture. =)
we love you joshie hiew. you know we do. =D
Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @4:59 PM
the phase of the day: man is someone who give you a very strong sense of "an quan gan" where he is around.
miche couldnt stop laughing when she saw this pop up in her msn window. imagine the hilarity of the entire thing. anyway, miche spent the entire of the long weekend drinking, too much alcohol, she is surprised she is still up and walking on tuesday and not poisoned somewhere. her parents are heading to genting tmrw and wont be back till sat, which means miche is home alone for the entire week. hurhur.
miche forgot how funny jude can be. he made miche laugh on sunday night. heh. bye kohei. go back to uk and tell me three days before. miche is going to miss you =)
Friday, May 08, 2009 @1:52 PM
Lifehouse - Storm
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright
I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface
If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If i'd see you
This darkness would turn to light
And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I know everything will be alright
I know everything will be alright
miche has always loved lifehouse songs and she somehow always manages to find interesting songs which appeals to her state of mind from lifehouse at particular stages of her life. it seems as if lifehouse is putting her life into words and music. how very interesting.
miche has come to the conclusion that english is a language that not everyone can comprehend, common sense is rare and stupidity is a virtue.
Thursday, May 07, 2009 @10:37 AM
miche doesnt know how to describe this poem, but it is rather hmmm...thought inducing. got it from goodreads' May newsletter. enjoy.
Jaybirds Feeding on Robinsby
Trish Lindsey Jaggers They are at it again. Momma
robin tears through the trees to save
what's left of her babies. One lies
twitching on the ground, its eye sock
etemptied by a jay. I can't bury it
until it's dead, and I can't kill it,so I sit by it
beneath the screaming nest in the sugar maple
as rain drops sizzle through hot leaves.
It's June, and it's supposed to be like this,
daylong heat frying up evening
thunderstorms. In the west, new cumulonimbus
stretch their gargoyle heads, growl long and low.
If it were dark, I could see lightning
ricochet from cloud to cloud. Thunderheads,
Daddy called them.
Four summers ago, a palm reader
told me that a man I love
is slipping away, a dandelion letting go of its seed,
the seed grasping the stalk in the west wind.
Daddy was afraid of leaving
for anywhere not close to home.
He always wanted to swimin the ocean, but I went first,
came back thanking him
for my life. Last time I dragged
myself home from the white edges of Georgia,
past the palm-reader's house just outside
of town, past the lily—pad-covered swamps, past tired cattails fuzzing out seeds,
he'd bought a van, "Next year
we all can go, and you can drive."
The reader said that I pass many but travel alone becauseI'm afraid of loss, of being left.
I closed my hand to this fool before she took
any more of my moneyor my palm.
The twitching stops. The rain runs
down my face, tugs free of my chin.
The earth is dry
beneath the bird. I triangle—fold it into one of his old hankies,
lift a corner just before the earth goes in.
I want to be sure.
The wedge of its beak is cold,
arrowed like the sharks' teeth
I found on San Fernandina beach.
He'll be dead four years this August.
Above me, in a high fork
of the sugar maple he planted
twenty-six years ago,the screaming has stopped.
Three years ago, we sold the van.
He'd parked it in the sugar maple's shadow,
the grass pale and stiff when we moved it.
Today I leave for Georgia.
In the west, the thunderheads shake
out their dark fur; the wind rakes
rain and leaves from the trees;
years of roots and worms and earth
steam from the ground.
I pat it down, make a cross
with rocks like we did when I was four.
"Why do jays do that?" I asked."It's their nature," he said.
All rain runs to the ocean.
I still taste salt
in the back of my throat.
I stand, drag my muddy hands across my jeans;
if I hurry, the storm will be behind me as I drive.
Wednesday, May 06, 2009 @9:32 PM
miche's horoscope analysis. miche wonders how true this is.
Individuals born on the cusp of Taurus (the second Sign of the Zodiac) and Gemini (the third Sign of the Zodiac) are ruled by both Venus and Mercury. Here, the influence of Venus endows these cuspians with a graceful and easy manner, coupled with a winning personality, while Mercury's influence increases the talent for music, art and eloquence. These individuals are thinkers, orators, artists and inventors. In short, the hands and brain work together in perfect harmony for this cusp combination. They display great imagination and tend to be very expressive, both physically as well as mentally. Taurus/Gemini natives would be well advised to become actively employed since the more they have to occupy their minds, the greater will be personal happiness...massage therapy, pottery, writing, painting and the composing of music can bring great fulfillment to these cuspians. In short, an idle Taurus/Gemini subject is a morbid and unhappy soul indeed.
The Taurus/Gemini cusp combination, also known as the Cusp of Energy, corresponds symbolically to the period of human life at around the age of fourteen. The firm-set Taurus nature here (which is controlled by the Planet Venus) acts as a counter-balance to the activity of Mercury (the Planet which rules Gemini) with its quick and mercurial ways. Because of the Gemini character, the desire to try new things is in the ascendant, but there is an inherent reluctance to relinquish the old...a carry-over from Taurus. This factors greatly in stability. However, an excess of this trait can hamper the Gemini nature and may result in an attempt to do two things at once...usually to the detriment of both. It can also make these cuspians stubborn about lesser things, even when they know little about them. Self-control is strongly needed in this blend and, once acquired, will enable these individuals to correct yet another aspect often lacking in this particular cusp combination...that being concentration, which is essential to this highly adaptable but somewhat contradictory Zodiac type. Those governed by the Taurus/Gemini cusp are said to be gifted in any domain they see fit to enter. These are often the artisans (and frequently the artists) of the Zodiac but, without the correct early training, are likely to develop in an abnormal fashion with a tendency to spend their time in sensuous enjoyment. These cuspians are said to have three masters: Castor and Pollux (who are seldom in harmony) and the Bull (who is ever determined to rule that historic pair). At best, these individuals are very busy and helpful...at worst, they become indolent.
Taurus/Gemini natives are exceedingly proud souls who would undoubtedly prefer starvation to dependence. If they do happen to find themselves in humble circumstances, then they will certainly be very miserable but, displaying entirely too much pride than is good for them, begging for help of any kind will be totally out of the question. These are glorious givers but reluctant receivers...a trait which can result in a character who is overly-free with money and a tendency to be wasteful. Thus, it is important that these cuspians develop a purposeful aspect to their nature. Nevertheless, these subjects can succeed at almost anything if they are willing to try. They are always active and energetic with refined manners and pleasing habits. They possess a keen interest in the world around them and the inherent charm cannot fail to draw innumerable friends and sweethearts. However, those involved with Taurus/Gemini individuals (who are notorious for their reputation as unstrustworthy souls) are likely to live in constant fear of losing them. To some, this may be an appealing challenge...to others, it is a frightening concept, particularly in the areas of business and employment. The brilliance of these cuspians is not normally sufficient to guarantee success in a given field unless such is supported by a string of undeniable accomplishments. Unfortunately, the characteristic associated with this cusp rarely manifests an endurance which is equal to personal desires and impulses. While slower and more purposeful people simply "hang in there," Taurus/Gemini individuals often find themselves being passed in life's race...rather like the hare was overtaken by the self-possessed and deliberate tortoise. The preparation of a resume may well be a rather painful process for these cuspians since it will likely reveal an eclectic background which is lacking any real depth...short sojourns in each job and somewhat dubious accomplishments, for example. Learning about the creation of structure and the value of limitations is essential for the growth of a Taurus/Gemini individual.
Taurus/Gemini cuspians will probably easily perceive themselves as more of a force than a person. No experts in self-awareness, from an early age they tend to forge a role for themselves in life which is active rather than passive...dynamic rather than static. As children, they are interested in everything around them, apt to fly every which way in their search for stimulation. These cuspians want to do it all and take on the world through a frontal assault. Some Taurus/Gemini individuals fail to form a strong ego when they are young, constantly wishing to please and often fearful of rejection. This can result in a character which accepts the wishes of others at personal expense. Thus, self-assertion and the building of a powerful ego can become a lifelong occupation for these cuspians. Taurus/Gemini individuals frequently remain youthful and light-hearted their entire lives, but the inherent need for physical pleasure can lead to an over-emphasis on money and the accumulation of possessions. Indeed, they are frequently somewhat addicted to sensuousness (and, at times, sensuality), prone to carry their tendencies to extreme and apt to invest in such items as fast cars and other material means of stimulation. In addition, without the correct training early in life, these cuspians may develop exceedingly large bodies. Nevertheless, these are basically tolerant and gentle souls who are often perceived by others as being scattered and highly-strung. The many interests of Taurus/Gemini subjects make them entertaining and loyal friends with a carefree and unpredictable twist. In their leisure time, Taurus/Gemini individuals enjoy pairing up with partners for recreation. Outdoor activities that allow a closeness with the earth are most favored. The love of conversation and good food ensures that relaxing dinners with friends are highly enjoyable and the inquisitive and literary orientation of this cuspian means that he or she will also enjoy mentally challenging pursuits. In short, the Taurus/Gemini cusp combination makes for a charming and congenial individual who has many friends and acquaintances in all areas of life.
With regard to relationships, since the rulers of this cusp combination are Venus and Mercury, any love affair must be both physical and mental in origin. The practical applications of artistic ability and authorship are profound on this cusp and domestic life is best if financially secure and mentally stimulated. The elements of earth (associated with Taurus) and air (associated with Gemini) rarely blend well. Instead, each element will seek to find its own territory or outlet. Taurus/Gemini individuals are inclined to be richly sensual by nature and, if left alone or isolated, may well become deeply depressed. Projects that are many-faceted and require patience can help in the healing of hurts for this combination. If security is threatened, a nervousness and lack of mental grounding may occur and it is essential for these cuspians to guard the throat and upper respiratory tract since, under stress, these body parts become most vulnerable to attack.
The great strengths of the Taurus/Gemini combination are stability, perseverance, and both intellectual and conversational skills. These cuspians are able to analyze difficult ideas and communicate those ideas to others in a clear an concise manner. Their methodical determination enables them to be productive even when others have long since "given up the ghost." There is a natural talent here to reason with others and this cusp combination is one of the strongest of the Zodiac when it comes to meeting goals...largely due to the inherent reliable persistence.
The most important lesson to be learned by Taurus/Gemini natives is that they should always be careful not to wear themselves out and realize that there are limits to what an individual can achieve in a short period of time. Additionally, it is important for them learn not to come on too strong and they also need to recognize the value of confronting personal fears and insecurities. As with all cusp individuals, these cuspians tend to be attracted to others born on the cusp...particularly those who fall within the Aries/Taurus and Sagittarius/Capricorn combinations.
Monday, May 04, 2009 @3:26 AM
it suddenly dawns on miche that she is way over all of the things that she was feeling over the past two months about debates and not being appreciated. that she realises that she doesnt really care anymore about it and she cant be bothered about it. somehow it is strangely liberating. miche knows that it is true that she has too much anger in her for no reason, but she guess she is slowly letting the anger go and for whatever reasons there is, this is one time where the ends is more important than the means.
miche hasnt been down or upset recently, but she guess somehow given her predisposition to sadness, she cant help but to sound upset most of the time even though she does not intend to. ha. oh well.
miche cant sleep again. bleah.
Saturday, May 02, 2009 @6:49 PM
spent the evening out with xiao poh poh last night. had dinner, bought the roo's birthday present and we went to catch a movie. he chose it not miche. well, miche wanted to watch traitor but he chose horsemen instead. anyway, horsemen in all totality is actually quite a nice show, gory but yeah it was really quite nice. but the torture scenes were a little too much for miche and miche kept hitting xiao poh poh in the theatre, asking him why was she made to watch such a show. he took a spin in the car. well, miche offered to let him drive himself home and he said no. oh well. anyway there was a line in the show.
why do people do the things they do?
miche guess that is a question that no one can really answer huh. why do people do the thing they do? maybe compulsion? maybe a desire to be accepted? to prove a point? to make a stand? but really, why do people do the things they do? hmmm.
thursday night's dinner was quite an interesting one. for a long time since aaron, miche hadnt had someone who would tell her what to do with her life, to find positives out of what miche perceives as a dead end situation. it was an illuminating conversation and if nothing else, miche guess that the enjoyment of each other's company is mutual. miche really does think too much for her own good and she wonders why cant she just take things the way they are and not think so much. miche received an email today from dominic soon asking to be a friend on this online document sharing site. miche has been avoiding him so much for the past year but somehow, miche feels that she will be meeting him soon, against her wishes and her will. miche wonders what will happen then.
miche misses being loved. for real.
today is the 13 of May, joshie clark kent hiew's birthday. miche cant believe that joshie hiew is 21 today, officially that is. miche was 19 when miche met joshie and now joshie is 21. that is long. haha =) anyway, happy 21st joshie hiew from all of us who are crazy, maniac, insane but still ultimately fun loving, loyal and best people to be friends with. yeah, all of us except, miche doesnt know where cheam and jake went, well val was takin the picture. =)