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Tuesday, December 27, 2005 @3:09 AM

since my first year in uni, i have made it a point to get my annual diary and organsier from spca. that is my little way of contributing to the association.

it is two days after christmas when i realised that i have yet to get my diary for 2006 from spca. and the thought of poor homeless puppies and kittens living there all alone on Christmas and Christmas eve makes me sad. no one should be alone on such a special occassion. dogs, cats, humans. no one. this is so wrong.

miche just came back from a walk at 3 am.

Thursday, December 15, 2005 @3:49 AM

i am missing everyone and everything all of a sudden.

i want to sit in a quiet embrace by the seaside and fall asleep on you. tonight, i yearned to be protected and taken care of. for once, to sleep carefree and no worries. listening to your heartbeat.

miche's missing all of you suddenly.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005 @9:47 PM

Christmas is lurking around the corner once again. New Year's coming. All of a sudden, the year is coming to an end. Hmm. this year. what can i say. it is a year of great ups and downs. havent exactly been the best year of the last 21 years. neither has it been the worst. there are many things to be really thankful for. many people to be grateful for. there are many things that need to be reexamine and ponder about. ways to be changed, attitudes to be altered. to be extremely frank, Christmas aint exactly the best time of the year for me. in fact, i generally feel extremely depressed during this period. in fact, i kinda hate Christmas. what a wet blanket i know. but i do feel that way most of the time during festive periods. it aint nice to have to spend such a cosy festival by yourself anyway. i dont know if i will be alone this year, but by the looks of it. yeah i will be so. anyway, a time for reflection i say is due.

The Musks - thanks firstly, (esp sam and josh) for bringing me back to Church, that really meant a lot and your constant refusal to let me slip away. i definitely had a lot of fun with all five of you. Thanks John for keeping me sane most of the time. Jake for all your craziness. Driel, what can i say, sushi trips were fun. Thanks for the green hair doll.

The IJ Girls - have to admit i havent been the greatest or the best of coaches this season. It has been a rough ride for all of us in one way and another. Thanks for being so understanding all the time with my crazy schedule and all your caring and thoughtful ways. I would be lying if i said that i didnt enjoy my time with you gals. You gals are the best man. Seriously, i wont have it any other way. Char and Van, Good Luck and All the best for your JC career. Hope you will get to the school you want for next year. Al and Val, hahah what else can i say, it has been 2 years watching you guys grow from juniors to seniors. The team is now is your hands take care of them yeah. Sham, gill and sandesh, there is still a long long way to go and more things to learn, but well we'll learn together as a team and we can only grow stronger. the sec ones, haha in time to come, we will get to know each other better yeah and i am certain with such fun loving seniors, you will have a swell time in debates.

The Barker Boys - a trying year huh. but nonetheless fun i would say. i am glad at the improvements you guys have put in. the passion that the sec ones have is something that has been missing for a while in the club. keep it going. Blias, Yinli, E Jin the ball is now is your court and it is your turn to lead your juniors. it isnt an impossible task to do you know. your seniors did it, really use them as role models. haha.

Paul, David, Terence, Auyong, Rachel - i dont know how to term you guys, but you guys are kinda like my surrogate siblings. hahah haventn been able to really keep in touch with you guys, you have busy schedules most of the time. but i am sure you guys have been fine, over the past few months. do take care of yourselves and dont overwork too much. i am and always been extremely appreciative of the friendship you guys have shown. thank you ever so much.

Cow, Hiutung - Many thanks for the fabulous birthday surprise yeah. it was really sweet of you guys. many thanks for the many other things you guys have done for me and the rest of them. i know many times we dont really seem appreciative of the things you do, but really and truly we are extremely grateful for such wonderful friends like you.

Fairy, Christine, Weilin, Vicky ,Rebecca - i cant say that i really know you guys as well as the rest, but i am sure of one thing, you gals are just as great as anyone of them! =)

Anisah, Karima, Ruhnayy - friends after so many years. we have been through so many different things together and alone. two more years i say, and we would have spent half our lifetime together. how long is that man. this friendship will last till the end of time yeah.

Marky, Luke - my one and only, you are decidedly the worst one and only any gal can have. but YET, i love you!!! hahahah Luke, it has been great knowing you and having you as a friend. definitely added more colour and laughter to my otherwise mundane and lifeless varsity time.

On the other hand, miche should be less ridiculous, reckless, hotheaded, impetuous,nonchalant about the things she does... miche wishes all of you a merry Christmas and a Happy New Year in advance.

remember, thank God and keep Him in your heart always.

May the Lord bless all of you for the coming year.

@9:35 PM

Somebody Else's Song

cant change this feeling
I'm way out of touch
cant change this meaning
well it means too much
never felt so lonely
never felt so good
cant be the only one misunderstood
cause i remind myself of somebody else i'm

feeling like i'm chasing like i'm facing myself alone
i've got somebody else's thoughts in my head
i want some of my own
i want some of my own
i want some of my own
can you see me up here would you
bring me back down
cause i've been living to see my fears as they
fall to the groundI remind myself of somebody else I'm

feeling like I'm chasing like I'm facing myself alone
I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head
I want some of my own
I want some of my own
I want some of my own
I want some of my own

am I hiding behind my doubts
are they hiding behind me
closer to finding out
it doesn't mean anything
cause I remind myself of somebody else I'm

feeling like I'm chasing like I'm facing myself alone
I've got somebody else's thoughts in my head
I want some of my own
I want some of my own
I want some of my own


Trying

could you let down your hair be transparent for awhile
just a little while
to see if your human after all
honesty is a hard attribute to find
when we all want to seem like
we've got it all figured out
well let me be the first to say that I don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
ain't gonna pretend like I do

just trying
to find my way
trying
to find my way the best that I know how

well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say
but I'm working on it
maybe I'll master this art form someday
if I quote all the lines off the top of my head
would you believe
that I fully understand all these things I've read

I'm just tryingto find my way
trying
to find my way
trying
to find my way the best that I know how

well I haven't got it all figured out quite yet but
even if it takes my whole life
to get to where I need to be
and if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you and

trying
to find my way
trying
to find my way
I'm trying
to find my way
trying
to find my way

Monday, December 12, 2005 @9:43 PM

when all choices seem wrong, choose restraint.

Saturday, December 03, 2005 @12:52 PM

hello everybody! i am back. haha finally after the exams. i almost died. i assure you i almost died! but i am back.

i need a breather. hahah bought harry potter the day the papers ended and finished reading it the very next day. i am so upset with Malfroy! why why why is he so screwed up now!!! oh well poor kid anyway.

met up with roger. who is ever the darling. he paid for everything and bought me to the HYATT for dessert. hahahah i need more friends like that who would bring me out and pamper me and send me around in a car. lalala.

i drove all the way from queenstown to ubi and back again yesterday. i was so fun! i passed nalli and rae's house! hahah and maybe a whole lot of other people's place too.

it was nice seeing you guys again yesterday albeit being a short while! but i had fun! =) miss ya guys! -hugs-

finally collected my passport. yes yes i can get out of singapore now. and trust me i am so going too. haha

anyway, i am off to a chalet for the next couple of days. will blog more when i come back! in the meantime, do take care of yourself for miche. hahahah

miche is finally liberated!

PROFILE
miche:highly eclectic personality:stationery junkie
loves notebooks, the smell of printed-paper and ink makers.
her first love in life is basketball.
enjoys the intellectual adrenaline of debating, the beauty of theatre and music.
loves rainy days and blue skies
an avid reader, collector of teddy bears.
wants to build an dog sanctuary.
finds solitude extremely soothing
loves writing/typing/texting in lower case.
highly interested in the theories of Fredrich Nietzsche and existentialism.
fan of German language and culture.
finds the fact that she is a cusp a unique feature of her life
God, friends, and family feature strongly in her life.
she likes referring to herself in third person, something most of her friends find freaky
has a death wish or so she thinks.

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POETRY
MUSIC
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alaric
alessa
aramis
auggie
bern
bryan
charleen
charlene
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de winne
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hye ryoung
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jajung
jeannie
jennifer
ji hyun
john leo caines
josh
joy
j.low
kaleni
leigh-anne
mark tan
melissa
meirlin's earrings enteprise
michelle
mishelle
mi-young
paul
rae
sam
sonia
mr otaku
tae yeon
terence
valerie


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3. Human, All too Human - Friedrich Nietzsche
4. The Will to Power - Friedrich Nietzsche
5. Truth and Existence - J.P Sartre
6. Existentialism and Humanism - J.P Sartre
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Movies to Catch

1. The Queen
2. Confession of Pain (Shang Chen)
3. The Protege (Men Tu)
4. The Last Dance

BIRTHDAYS

birthday tree
the boss - 4 Jan
Elvin - 8 Jan
Gill - 10 Jan
WeiXiang - 13 Jan
Sam - 14 Jan
the grosmer - 26 Jan
Aaron - 1 Feb
Ben Yap - 2 Feb
Hiu Tung- 5 Feb
Ja Jung - 7 Feb
Josh Hoe - 8 Feb
Weilin - 13 Feb
Auyong - 20 Feb
Ting ting si - 25 Feb
Jik Han - 28 Feb
Yin - 2 March
Cheryl - 3 March
Christine - 20 March
Kenneth - 21 March
Chere - 26 March
Terence, Judith - 29 March
Meeschell - 30 March
Lex - 1 April
Mishelle - 1 April
Druggie - 7 April
Liz - 16 April
Melissa - 18 April
John Leo - 26 April
Hye Ryoung/the bunny - 30 April
Josh - 13 May
Jevan,Andre - 16 May
Kat/Siti - 20 May
Martino - 21 May
Seb/Rebecca - 22 May
Teddy - 23 May
T.K - 27 May
Aidan,Hon - 29 May
Jiajia - 31 May
fairy - 7 June
Cow - 8 June
the poh - 5 july
Char & Char - 17 July
Aramis - 21 July
Feli, Josh & Joe Nair - 28 July
Jennifer - 31 July
Paul - 7 Aug
Auggie/En Wei - 9 Aug
Mao Mao Chen - 13 Aug
Thazin - 14 Aug
Gurion - 16 Aug
Bryan, Seon Mi, Yilin - 20 Aug
Alessa - 25 Aug
Val - 3 Sept
Guy, Jac - 11 Sept
Rachel - 12 Sept
Mi-ran - 14 Sept
the tigger - 15 sept
Ji Hynn - 17 Sept
Nalli, Yint Zin - 20 Sept
Hello Kitty - 23 Sept
Leigh / Noel- 24 Sept
Celine - 25 Sept
Vicky - 26/27 Sept
Wint - 30 Sept
Ren - 1 Oct
Grace - 1 Oct
Mi-Young - 2 Oct
Sharm - 8 Oct
Marky - 10 Oct
the owl - 13 Oct
Jacob,Grace - 22 Oct
the eeyore - 23 Oct
Xiaodi - 28 Oct
Bo Lui - 30 Oct
Victoria - 4 Nov
Van - 14 Nov
Hai Ming - 19 Nov
Sun Min - 26 Nov
Zin Mee - 28 Nov
J Low - 29 Nov
Joy - 5 Dec
Nian Ting - 7 Dec
Luke - 27 Dec
Andy gom/Jhi Sheng - 31 Dec

50 things before miche dies

1. tell all the people she loves, that she loves them dearly.
2. send a personalised note/letter/gift to all her good friends and people who have touched her life, telling them how important they are and how they have made her life worthwhile.
3. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her parents.
4. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her god-family.
5. save a stray dog or two.
6. travel to prague.
7. give my teddy bears away.
8. try to write a decent poem or short story.
9. pay attention in class for once.
10. learn to forgive herself and those who have perhaps done her wrong.
11. drive to thailand.
12. walk down orchard road dressed in pink and purple only.
13. picnic by the beach
14. finish reading "dreams of the red chamber" in chinese
15. get the giant teddy bear i always wanted.
16. perform one last time
17. buy a dress / skirt
18. watch a cheesy, tacky, gawdy comedy - BRUNO or TROPIC THUNDER
19. pat a snake
20. throw a party on a bus
21. sky dive and bungee jump
22. walk all around singapore - halfway there
23. eat nothing but vegetables for a week - kinda stop eating
24. burn all her photos, diaries and letters. delete this blog.
25. cry with all her might
26. be happy and try to stay happy till the end
27. be amazed by the simple things in life
28. sleep at least 8 hours per day and not more than 10 for a week
29. write a letter to johnny depp
30. plant something
31. be a organ donor, give whatever can still be used. (not my liver though, too much alcohol in it)
32. get blind drunk, like seriously blind drunk
33. draw/paint/compose a last picture
34. she hates taking pictures, but yeah, take a picture with all her loved ones.
35. be totally ladylike for a whole day. (i.e. dont swear, curse or be mean)
36. cycle to changi and back.
37. attend church everyday
38. take all the bus services available in singapore
39. get 2 tattoos
40. buy cup noodles and eat them by the roadside. well i ate by the beach, doesnt count right
41. colour her hair in multi-hues
42. draw up a will
43. climb a tree
44. remember to smile.
45. compete in one last basketball tournament
46. debate competitively one last time
47. eat all the gelato she wants
48. eat all the dairy products she wants
49. celebrate the life that's been
50. Thank God.
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