Wednesday, January 31, 2007 @1:14 AM
i went to the youth.sg office today to learn from the new intern how to operate the uploading system for the portal. and i realised that i needed mozilla firefox in order to start posting and uploading my articles for them. so i came home and downloaded mozilla and i am having so much fun with it now!
had "dinner" with din din and nat at nydc wheellock. din din passed nat her birthday present and nat kept hitting me for no reason. i hit her on the head.
hahah. got my youth.sg namecards today. so i have like erm 4 different sets of namecards now? when the YCM one is ready, that will be five. told shawn that nat, mart and i should have special set of name cards with NYF, YCM and Youth.SG logos all on it. and i will just circle the programme i represent ahah. save money.
my younger bro, called me yesterday just to tell me that he saw Paul Twohill sitting in the drain near Ngee Ann. Actually he said, your friend is sitting in the drain. i was wondering which strange friend of mine will do that (then i realised actually i have quite a few friends who would.)
luke, rens, janelle and i painted a chair. hahah it is happpy and white. so flowery. hahah. i painted another one, cause i was bored. and check out the youth.sg "SUPPORT" chair. aiyah, just check out the chairs and bid for one!
HEREmeir, luke and i wanted to crash lulu's first tutorial. "Eh sir, what is a smile(simile)?" "eh, can you define a metaphor for me?" wait till he gets to the Woman in White. I will so crash the class.
Aaron's Morning at Memory's Borders is being taught as a text in NUS. i am going to find out what class it is. haha it has always been a desire of mine to go, "wait a minute, i dont think Aaron meant that, let me call and check..." hahahah so weird, if i quote him, he will be Maniam and not Aaron. no no this cant be happening...
have so much to read it is killing me. this is how the week goes, read metafiction text, finish metafiction text, pick up 19th C text, read 19th C text, finish 19th C text, pick up 20th C text, read 20th C text, finish 20th C text. try to read for arthur yap. (i somehow cant believe that i am writing my paper on singapore lit, the amnesia of modernity that is the title of my paper. for now that is.)
can die! oh oh.
my friend Melissa has a new shop in Square 2, an extenstion of Novena Square. it is called Purple Tulip. Go check it out!
talk to me soon perhaps. hai. forget it.okay. tired. 1.30 i think i should sleep. hahahah... miche is a slightly hysterical.
Saturday, January 27, 2007 @12:55 AM
been so thoroughly busy with reading (note not school, but merely reading) that i have not been sleeping very well. so very very tired and exhausted most of the time and the cool rainy weather doesnt help either. i freaking want to sleep all the time under my polar bear covers.
heh. so i shall write tmrw. cause i am lazy but i have quite a bit of things to blog. haha
miche....
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 @1:53 AM
you think i am stupid, but the truth is that it's cupid, baby loving you has made me this way. This is the description of my country on
www.nationstates.net.
The Free Land of Dionysian joy is a very large, safe nation, remarkable for its complete lack of prisons. Its compassionate population of 56 million are fiercely patriotic and enjoy great social equality; they tend to view other, more capitalist countries as somewhat immoral and corrupt.
The enormous, socially-minded government devotes most of its attentions to Social Welfare, with areas such as Defence and Law & Order receiving almost no funds by comparison. The average income tax rate is 40%, but much higher for the wealthy. A very small private sector is dominated by the Trout Farming industry.
There's a shortage of swinging hot spots as land development grinds to a halt, a National Academy regulates grammar and usage, the government is spending millions on renovating the public transportation system, and the government has instituted 'traveller reservations' across the country. Crime is totally unknown. Dionysian joy's national animal is the bear, which frolics freely in the nation's many lush forests, and its currency is the goblet.
It is currently a democractic socialist (hear hear, who else is a democractic socialist!), my civil rights are excellent (at one point it was world benchmark standard), my economy is unfortuntely weak and my political freedoms are good. haha. some idiot tried to kill my bears. i got so angry. hahah. okay.
miche says good nights.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 @2:07 AM
i had a dream last night. it was rather weird. i dreamt of an earthquake in japan and i wasnt in the dream. the earthquake was so bad that the entire fire station crumbled. and i saw it crumble in my dreams, as in all the windows shattering and the front of the building just fell. the entrance to the main fire station building was blocked by the debris and rubble that fell when the earthquake happened. the single remaining fire engine left the building, hence could not get out of the building, entrapped by the debris. it was so bad that the vehicle had to exit from the windows. it banged through the walls and came right out on to the streets, rolling over the debris and rubble. it was one big gigiantic fire engine.
such a weird dream. (prior to that i had dreams of needing to ballot for some chinese literature class, and i kept reminding myself that i needed to ballot for tutorials on friday, cause that is the day that the tutorial registration starts. the thing is, i dont take chinese literature and i never took chinese literature. i think it was the conversation i had with luke about wanting to read hong lou meng. haha)
i wonder what does all these dreams mean. i realised that there are tons to work to be done on top of writing the ism. hahah oh well. finally, and i mean finally (after 5 populars, 1 sunny, 1 mph) i found a cheap copy of
mrs dalloway. (and i dont particularly like virginia woolf). Hurrah! Meir! we have our books.
miche is reading
the moonstone. (made me feel like wearing the one single diamond i have, but please dont ever buy diamonds, you encourage the war in africa to go on. control renee, control. hahah)
Friday, January 12, 2007 @1:53 AM
i had always wanted a tatto. but i could never decide where i was going to get one. but the other day, actually no when i was in korea i realised where i should have one. between my shoulder blades and what shall it be. a celtic cross. so i surfed the net for some nice designs. damn i didnt know that tattoo designs had to be bought. anyway, i decided on some designs that i like. but i am going to leave the design of the tattoo to my closest friends which gives it meaning. i.e rens and meir and the rest. told rens already and told her that she could weave all of our names very subtlely into the design.
okay set. my long term goal and target: TO EARN ENOUGH MONEY TO BUY A PLOT OF LAND BIG ENOUGH TO BUILD A VILLA WITH EXTENSION WINGS FOR THE EIGHT OF US. LIBRARY AND SWIMMING POOL INCLUDED. I GUESS I WANT A GYM TOO.
Thursday, January 11, 2007 @11:21 PM
i never took my new year's resolutions seriously. in fact i use to make them and forget them almost immediately the week after. so i decided not to make any new year's resolution this year cause i truly see no point.
but having gotten home really upset and pissed and angry. the rain kinda washed my eyes clean and make them wide open. so perhaps this should be my resolution for the year.
1. ignore conversations that have no relevance to me.
2. reassess my friendships with certain people. perhaps i am indeed unworthy of their friendship and attention after all. or just that as i have always known, that people are more important to me than i am to them. because there is always someone else better and more significant, and i am not worth it.
3. determined not to let anyone make me feel small and insignificant, unworthy. not to be taken for granted by people who matter to me.
4. cut all irrelevant people out of my life.
perhaps you should know this, the moment i tell myself that everything ends tonight. it not only means my friendship and everything to do with you. but also everyone else. it means cutting out the rest as well. it is a painful call for me to make. but truly, i dont deserve the treatment i get. i never wanted anything in return, i only wanted to be a good friend. but it takes two to tango. the same way it takes more than one party to keep the friendship going. but from the way i see it, maybe i am wrong. but for the amount of thought and effort i have placed and invested in all of you. i have gotten nothing in return. except for tons of anger and irritation. all i ever wanted was a chance for us to sit down and have a meal together. a quiet time to catch up and laugh like the old times. a quiet time where we are together as friends and not as partners on a project or a committee. i never knew that friendship was built on meetings and functions. i never knew that friendship meant not taking the effort to say a short hello, how are you. i never knew that friendship was meant to be transcient and frivolous. i never knew that friends will be blatantly insensitive and inconsiderate; that you will deliberately talk of things which you fucking know affects me. the people who take the most from me, ironically are the best who claim that they want the best for me. it is ironically the people who claim that they care deeply for me. dont tell me that i am fucking different. that i am important. that you want to be a good friend. dont tell me that you hope to fucking see me soon. dont tell me shit when you, none of you fucking mean it. seriously. dont take me for a fucking fool. a fucking idiot. so let me tell you today. i am seriously reconsidering everything. miche is in a pensive mood today, re-assessing and re-considering friendships, priorities and life.
Monday, January 08, 2007 @9:46 PM
to me, the greatest pain one can ever endure is not of losing an beloved item, neither will it be childbirth (as people always say child labour will be the most painful thing to endure).
the greatest pain, in my opinion, is to endure the pain of losing a friend. the loss of a close friend is the hardest thing i ever had to endure. each time, someone who was close to me starts to distance and i can only watch as it happens, it kills me. it really does.
this emotional rollercoaster i have to endure for the last 6 months of my life has been hell. i was only truly happy for a while before i left the country for korea. beyond that, it has been horrible and terrible.
i thought that everything's fine and back to what it used to be.
i cant complete this post. it is taking too much out of me to write about this. the confusion, the pain, the agony eats me up from inside out day by day.
Sunday, January 07, 2007 @10:13 PM
school and classes are starting in another 11 hours. somehow, it doesnt feel as if it is going to be the last semester in university.
gave up on making up new year's resolutions. cause i always managed to break them within 24 hours of the new year. so yeah.
Saturday, January 06, 2007 @12:47 AM
meet luke for lunch today hahah. we had taboo harum food that mer and rens couldnt eat. so we sneaked away for a xiao long bao and la mian rendevous. hahahah it was satisfying. was just telling luke that my last two memories of la mian xiao long bao were rather dismal, ironically at the same branch of Crystal Jade, at the same table. exactly one month apart. anyway, yeah.
i realised that i never had the time to sit down and do the resource guide when i am in the office because i always have some other thing to settle or some other paper work to complete. and when i am at home, i am either lounging around the place or being totally grumpy and moody about life and goodness know what that i dont get around to doing what i actually set out to do. urgh.
met aiida and alan in the evening to catch gurion's charity performance. on the way to kap to meet aiida, alan and i have some really hilarious conversation.
alan: woah, if alex lee ever becomes a teacher i better not send my son to him. sure to turn out like him, party and club the whole time and dont study.
me: huh, then send your son to ACS (I) lah, since alex refliefs in barker.
alan: (totally ignoring what i just said, continues) but then, his genes is screwed already lah. his father is like how duh. woah, confirm cannot make it. (alan was referring to his own son by the way).
me: er, why are you thinking so much?
alan: must think far okay. forward thinking.
me: alan, before you have a son to send to any ACS school, you first have to find a girlfriend. then your girlfriend must marry you and want to have your kids and you must have boys. If not, talk so much also no use, because no one is going to ACS.
alan: woah, you set me thinking. the first step is already a problem how ah. man, i should stop thinking so far.
me: yeah and your son will also have to find a girlfriend who wants to marry him and have his kids and have a son before anyone goes to ACS.
alan: woah, the vicious cycle continues huh. like that, my family is doomed.
Conversation in the theatrealan: bak cho mee , mai di guai (minced mee noodle without pig's liver)
me: huh. what did you just say? bak cho me mai di guai? since when did bak cho mee have di guai? and why did you say that for no reason?
alan: bored ma. bak cho mee always have di guai.
me: no. i have never heard or seen bak cho mee with di guai. where did you order this?
alan: they always ask you if you want di guai and the black mushroom.
me: no. i dont recall.
alan (points to aiida sitting next to me): dont believe ask her.
me (looks at alan pointedly): ask her?!
(aiida is muslim so she wont eat or order bak cho mee much less know if there is pig's liver in it)
alan: oh. sorry! sorry! (in hush tones: dont tell her!)
I love alan ang. he is so funny. i know i make fun of him all the time ( i never allow him to forget that one Taboo game we played and the "rocking chair" he made). i hope he doesnt turn up at aiida's place on chinese new year and ask my god parents for bak gua. i will murder him. but yeah i do love alan ang. heh
i dont know what to make of your message to me. because i dont like to hope, only to be disappointed. i was asked today why am i still friends with you. i truly couldnt answer, but somewhere in me i know it is because i cant bear to extricate myself from you or to imagine not having you around (at least for now).
Thursday, January 04, 2007 @11:20 PM
the curse of the golden flower totally blew me over last night. brillantly directing. fabulous use of colours. wonderful acting.
i have been having these bouts of wanting to write but totally forgetting what i wanted to write about by the time i get into blogger. hmmm.
maybe later.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @4:00 AM
char and i met up on the second day of the New Year for tea and to catch. Thanks dear for the wonderful tee-shirt and the chocs! =) and we took new pictures because the ones of the two of us were old. haah she was 15 and i was 19. so yeah it is time to update. hehe see the difference.
on the way to lot one in janelle's car on New Year's Day, we saw this beautifil and brillant rainbow arching over us. the wonderful thing is if you looked close enough at the first picture, there were two rainbows in the sky. it was the full spectrum of colours. how pretty right.
two entries again, i blogged about how 2006 was a bad year for me. the pretty rainbow on New Year's Day itself, told me and all of us there, that it was a good omen, a good start to a New Year. so for all of us who has had a tough or less than saluburious time in 2006, here is to a wonderful and blessed 2007.
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