Friday, May 14, 2004 @11:36 PM
it has been a long time since i last blogged. hehe...well i have been helping out at the JCs SYF Drama Central Judging so i have been busy lately. dead tired too...hahah five plays a day.
anyway,just got home i was out with Nalli and later sharm and grace came to meet us. we had fun walking round and laughing at someone's play. anyway, nalli is now a grandmother of HAMSTERS...hahah and we have certified that she is blind and really suck at determining genders. hahaha.....=) oh well.
haha, you know i have been thinking these days (yes, mich thinks about serious things as well. although i laugh and do weird and stupid things all the time around most of you i ponder seriously and i mean seriously.) sometimes we lament about how hard our lives are cos of studying exams and what not. and all my years of waliking down orchard road it never really struck me, how many roadside peddlers and street performers there are. maybe cos we never really see all of them all the time. the last few days, i have been seeing this young man, he doesnt look more than 17 sitting by the underpass to Lido, "begging" for money. and he had a card that said "Family poor. Brother sister not working.please help". then further down was a old lady with long hair selling tissues and then another older lady trying to sell goceries and small accessories. by the escalator to wheellock, there was an old man, selling tissues, his fingers were mere stumps and we really had to buy the tissues from him and he was so nice about it. it is quite disheartening if it is the right word to know that there are still so many people who are there need help but cant or dont know where to get help being stuck in this state. it is really sad and disconcerting. two things. two things
1. we either are doing too little for these people or there aint enough avenues for them to get access to these services and welfare help. this is what prompt me to be a social worker always. (ahem i might be rather evil and bitchy to some people, but i am actually very soft hearted when it comes to people who needs help, desperate extreme help. and i really do what to help them but somehow when it comes to it i feel really helpless and i can only buy their stuff. and it makes me really sad.)
2. we are really pampered and living in a comfortable world. all the worries and troubles we have are nothing compared to them. Most of these peddlers i meet, are either old, handicapped or uneducated such that they cant get a job or find work anywhere. in a way we cant never understand the kind of worries and troubles that they got through. while we sit here and worry about exam grades, DEP (haha teasing lah), which CD to buy, which notebook to get, whether the next debate would be good for us, these people out there are fending for their life and their next meal, we are worrying of things that are trival in comparison.
it is rather ironic and depressing actually, that they are right smack in the middle of town,surrounded by all these people who have the money to spare (well most) but people just dont do a single thing. sighs sighs sighs. i wonder why. we make such a show of giving so much money to people on the television when the actual people who need this money aint getting any. what a gracious society. it is all about the face. it is all about looking good. and standing by the side of the underpass to buy tissues or drop a coin, or buy a pack of biscuits does not look good.
well well well. all that i have said i cant do anything either.
sorry for the long deep and rather serious reflection but
mich is disturbed.i am really in a dilemma
