my dreaded examination results are going to be out in less than 12 hours. pray for me please...i truly dont ask for much, just enough to keep my scholarship and yes haha my expectations.


anyway, finally back home from camelot where i stayed at my friend's place.hehe i swear we are mad, the way we roam town for the sake of roaming town in the middle of the night.


went for a hair cut with cow yesterday. my hairdresser is finally home. hahah i am so happy. anyway went to perlini silver to get some stuff since i had three different vochers to use by today so yeah.


went out with ADRIEL and JAKE and JOHN today. went to watch madagascar. the show is seriously overhyped. thought that it would be fun but it was rather LAME! haha oh well. anyway the theatre was filled with annoying people who spoke on the phone DURING THE SHOW and CHILDREN who cant SHUT UP urgh. ask jake i wanted to throw popcorn at all the children sitting in fornt of me their parents included haha oh well. went for waffle at galeria. john went off. we headed to town. roamed around, driel bought some jazz cd from gramphone and yes he got some another handphone accessory that WONT fall off to replace the GREEN hair doll, who is by the way sitting on my table. hahah. oh well. THANKS ADRIEL (i know you like seeing your name) we went home after that. next time, jake you must remind me not to be so gullible kay! hahah... =)


anyway, back to angsting abt my grades. shall pray abt it. and GURION, dont laugh at me kay, i am trying to be good. really just that XX makes me break my promises, man God is going to punish me for that.


and oh i promise adriel this:



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i have no idea how many ADRIELs there are BUT haha hope it is enough. =)

miche is signing off and worrying abt her grades. *pouts*

Let me make a few things very painfully clear tonight:




(1) DEP Advanced is still pending decision. No concrete finalisations have been made as to when the interviews are, how many people we are taking. As far as we are concern, the applications are still at the stage of consideration. and no, we will not release any prior information regarding the advanced programme until further notice. Furthermore, there is no cause for worry given that the programme is due to start only after the completion of the GCSE O Levels. Hence, i believe it is the wish of the committee that your PRIMARY focus is on your studies at the moment.




(2) ANY and ALL form of speculations on the released results of the two lower divisions are all unwarranted andn unnecessary. UNLESS, and i firmly believe, UNLESS individuals have been in the interview room as an INTERVIEWER, all comments on the outcome of the programme should be kept to yourself.




(3) From hence, ALL QUERIES abt the programme should be addressed by aaron, me, Vishal for the Junior division and Yongwei for the Intermediate Division. We will answer all queries to our BEST abilities.




(4) The DEP isnt a one size fit all programme. each division will be TAILORED to suit the learning styles and needs of the participants. I STRESS, the selection process is totally transparent and fair. IT IS BASED SOLELY ON MERITOCRACY, depending on your PAPER APPLICATION and INTERVIEW. SHOULD an individual be a deserving member of DEP, rest assured that he/she have equal opportunities to join the programme. Should there be any queries, similarly address it to aaron, me or the instructors in concern.




(5) ALL decisions made by the panel are final and uncontestable. we ask that this decisions are to be respected and held in regard. SHOULD THERE BE ANY DISSATISFACTION abt the outcome, please approach me or aaron or the respective instructors to CLARIFY matters.




I hope that this clears matters up for every one who is concerned abt the administration and selection criteria of the DEP. I reinterate and emphasize that SHOULD ANY INDIVIDUAL be it a DEBATER or a PARENT who has queries abt the programme, please DO NOT hestitate to contact me or aaron to CLARIFY matters and to get a better picture.

havent been home for two nights. haha dont ask me why. =P


thanks adriel for the green hair doll. she keeps falling off and getting her hair entangled with my keys though. haha
will lend you the ipod for church camp. Joshie take care of it for ME! haha


DEP Advanced is still pending decision. so you guys have to wait.

book buying spree. kinda regret the amount of money spent. bought a TONNE of books at kino 20% sale. hahah...

almost all of my booklist is cleared. will wait for a couple of months more to buy more books.


had lunch with adriel jacob and daniel. haha they are mad as usual. played three rounds of daytona. stupid adriel kept over turning me on purpose. haha oh well.


had dinner with parents. hahah the usual lah. oh well.


finally got my ipod! hahaha....

Thank you everyone who sent me birthday greetings. thanks for remembering =)...
Charleen

Nalli

Valerie

Alessa

Vanessa

Paul

John

Josh

Kal

Rachel

Mark

J Auyong

Wacky

Richard

Michael

Chere

Weilin

Renee, Iida =)

David

Jesse

Naveen

Adarsh



Thanks to Kal and Hiu for coming all the way down though you really shouldnt have and yes for lunch and the 1001 things you insisted on buying. thanks though.



david is going to think that i am mad. but yeah, i feel so sad and worried for resident dog in holland v. the renovation of holland market means that he no longer have a place to sleep and i dont know if any one actually feeds him. he was so scared just now when people kept walking past him frightening him. poor thing. hope that at least someone will feed the poor dog. my heart breaks when i see poor animals suffering. i want to have an animal shelter one day. or adopt lots of dogs.

flag day, first time in my life. was an experience. surprisingly the people who donated were the Malays and the old people. Malays cos we were fund raising for a christian organization and they are aware. I am glad in fact that people are willing to see beyond religious lines. the well dressed and well appeared loaded ones are the people who refused to donate. urgh. oh well.


Happy birthday Rebecca! =) you're legal now!

Happy birthday Seb! =) dont know you well but i think you're funny =)

May Babies



05 - Chee Sing

09 - Mark

13 - Joshie

14 - Geran

15 -

16 - Andre/Jevan

17 - Darius

18 - Rohini

19 - Eliza

20 - Kat

21 -

22 - Seb/Rebecca

23 - Roger

24 - Debs

25 - Raj

26 - Mishy

27 -

28 - Yq

29 - Hon

30 - Daphne

31 - Amy



Find the rest to complete the chain =) hee hee

happy birthday darius.

thanks sam for the star wars ticket. have to admit it was quite spectacular. still dont know why you want to be darth vader. be yoda, i want. hahah..

have to admit today was a rather interesting day. good to see the many people whom i havent seen for a while. namely chere, michelle, auyong and david.


went to church as usual in the morning. hah was ministry fair sunday. kinda got accosted by sam's mum, who tried to co-opt me into children's ministry. hah i told her i was afraid of children. haha(al is perfect for the job i say, reading bible stories to pre-schoolers). anyway, decided to talk to joshua abt helping out in yam so yeah think i am going for the next committee meeting. haha figured since i am so good at crapping might as well put it to use in church.

dep interviews in the afternoon. well, best of luck to all of you. but yeah, dep isnt the end all be all.

went back to tanah merah in the evening with aaron. haha but i was at expo. why cos my aunt's church which also happens to be rachel's church had some parents' appreciation nite service cum dinner. first thing miche notices, there are lots of old people around. and yeah so i was kinda out of place with my converse sneakers and black bag. second thing, when the pastor went up there. i realised that it was a hokkien service. i was kinda taken aback and the waiters haha couldnt understand my english. praise and worship in hokkien was an eye-opener. i have to say hah they were quite innovative with the music. the speaker was some pastor from sarawak so he spoke cantonese accented hokkien which was quite hilarious to listen too. and he had very funny stories to tell. so yeah. was at a hokkien service tonight. anyway, nope i am not going to my aunt's church. haha so yeah.

miche's tired. going off in a while after i finish writing some stuff. so yeah miche's says goodnight.



Happy Birthday Andre Kua, hope your wish comes true.

Happy Birthday Jevan Lee, and yup may the girl of your dreams come to you soon!



P/S: barker seniors i.e mark, jevan, horny, alaric, adriel, janan, winne and IAN tay. dinner soon pls. hahah i miss ian... but then again i miss charleen and vanessa and nalli and gillian and michelle and paul and and and aahahah....

happy birthday, josh.

deep violet coloured hair with dark blue streaks. layered fringed.

i am no fan of jay chou. but i like this song.




你听得到

有谁能比我知道

你的温柔像羽毛

秘密躺在我怀抱

只有你能听得到



还有没有人知道

你的微笑像拥抱

多想藏着你的好

只有我看得到



站在屋顶只对风说

不想被左右

本来讨厌下雨的天空

直到听见有人说爱我

坐在电影院的二楼

看人群走过

怎么那一天的我们

都默默的微笑很久



我想我是太过依赖

在挂电话的刚才

坚持学单纯的小孩

静静看守这份爱



直到不能太依赖

怕你会把我宠坏

你的香味一直排徊

我舍不得离开

i realised yesterday on my way home how much i missed junior. but i guess i cant get her back no matter what. we ate ice-cream again. or rather joshie ate ice cream again at cafe cartel, with jacob fighting over it.


sat.

hahah roamed town with joy, joseph, lord byron and alan ang (alan never meets us cos he is SO popular) ahah. i took his cap off him. he kept saying "my head will get cold!!!" haha and so he kept hugging his head. it was so fun making fun of alan. hee..headed to burger king at cine later around eh 10? hahah cos lord byron was hungry and so was joy. alan sat down and realised that BK was selling some thing shaped like stars. so he decided to buy a meal. but the stupid boy didnt buy any for us. =P anyway, we settled down to play games like black magic, bang bang, around the world. haha alan was perplexed cos joy started playing i like and i dont like and he couldnt figure it out. hahaha i bet he was perplexed the whole way home. haha...


sun.

i abandoned the musks haha as they call themselves for the main service in the sanctuary.haha. went off for lunch after that. we ended up at kfc. hahah and joshie wanted ice cream. headed off to joshie's place and helped him with his lit while trying to get adriel to do work. haha. jacob walked me out to the mrt later on.
i got home, ate my dinner and fell asleep till 3 this afternoon. i guess i really lack sleep over the last few months huh.


mon.

am bored at home. as usual. am bored. made my dad send me to kap cold storage cos i wanted to walk through a supermart for no reason. he was going to send the elder one to the airport anyway. so yeah. oh yes. my mum is going for some church function by my aunt's church with my grandma. she asked me to go with her. perhaps perhaps somethings are changing huh. and yeah on the way to kap just now, my dad was making some lame jokes abt christians. my mum looked at me with this really weird look. hmm maybe maybe it is time huh. anyway, got home at 8. did nothing. really did nothing and so here i am blogging. sighs. my sad sad life.




anyway, here's to all who have not finished their papers. good luck. i know you can do it.



to those who are done. go enjoy your holidays. you earned it =)


miche signing off.



(mister lonely is playing on the radio!)

Because I could not stop for Death,

He kindly stopped for me;

The carriage held but just ourselves

and Immortality.



We slowly drove, he knew no haste,

And I had put away,

My labor, and my leisure too,

For his civility.




We passed the school where children played.

At wresting in a ring;

We passed the fields of gazing grain,

We passed the setting sun.






We paused before a house that seemed

A swelling of the ground;

The roof was scarely visible,

The cornice but a mound.



Since then 't is centuries; but each

Feel shorter than the day

I first surmised the horses' heads

Were toward eternity

our late President, Dr Wee Kim Wee was a great man.

a sad touching story.





My name is Mildred Hondorf. I am a former elementary school music teacher from Des Moines, Iowa. I've always supplemented my income by teaching piano lessons-something I've done for over 30 years.


Over the years I found that children have many levels of musical ability. I've never had the pleasure of having a prodigy though I have taught some talented students. However I've also had my share of what I call "musically challenged" pupils. One such student was Robby. Robby was 11 years old when his mother (a single mom) dropped him off for his first piano lesson. I prefer that students (especially boys!) begin at an earlier age, which I explained to Robby. But Bobby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play the piano. So I took him as a student. Well, Robby began with his piano lessons and from the beginning I thought it was a hopeless endeavour. As much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that I require all my students to learn. Over the months he tried and tried while I listened and cringed and tried to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, "My mom's going to hear me play some day." But it seemedhope-less. He just did not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from a distance as she dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick him up. She always waved and smiled but never stopped in.


Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons. I thought about calling him but assumed because of his lack of ability, that he had decided to pursue some-thing else. I also was glad that he stopped coming. He was a bad advertisement for my teaching! Several weeks later I mailed to the student's homes a flyer on the upcoming recital. To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked me if he could be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current pupils and because he had dropped out he really did notqualify. He said that his mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but he was still practicing. "Miss Hondorf . .I've just got to play!" he insisted. I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was his persistence or maybe it was something inside of me saying that it would be all right. The night for the recital came. The high school gymnasium was packed >with parents, friends and relatives. I put Robby up last in the program before I was to come up and thank all the students and play a finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come at the end of the program and I could always salvage his poor performance through my "curtain closer." Well the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been practicing and it showed. Then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an egg-beater throughit. "Why didn't he dress up like the other students?" I thought. "Why didn't his mother at least make him comb his hair for this specialnight?" Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #21 in C Major. I was not prepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo to fortissimo... from allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were magnificent! Never had I heard Mozart played so well by people of his age. After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was on their feet in wild applause. Overcome and in tears I ran up on stage and put my arms around Robby in joy. "I've never heard you play like that Robby! How'd you do it? " Through the microphone Robby explained: "Well Miss Hondorf . . . remember I told you my mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed away this morning. And well .. she was born deaf so tonight was the first time she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special." There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from Social Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care, I noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy and I thought to myself how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as mypupil.No, I've never had a prodigy but that night I became a prodigy. . of Robby's. He was the teacher and I was the pupil. For it is he who taught me the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and maybe even taking a chance in someone and you don't knowwhy.Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Building in Oklahoma City in April of 1995.



Do we act with compassion or do we pass up that opportunity > and leave the world a bit colder in the process?


"Climb Whatever Possible. Climb Mentally, Do It Physically."

After "It must be you" by Stephen Bishop. This is the other song that touches my heart.


First of May
When I was small,
and Christmas trees were tall,
we used to love while others used to play.
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
some one else moved in from far away.
(chorus)
Now we are tall, and Christmas trees are small,
and you don't ask the time of day.
But you and I, our love will never die,
but guess we'll cry come first of May.


The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
the day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.
(chorus...)
When I was small, and Christmas trees were tall,
do do do do do do do do do...
Don't ask me why, but time has passed us by,
some one else moved in from far away.

miche:highly eclectic personality:stationery junkie
loves notebooks, the smell of printed-paper and ink makers.
her first love in life is basketball.
enjoys the intellectual adrenaline of debating, the beauty of theatre and music.
loves rainy days and blue skies
an avid reader, collector of teddy bears.
wants to build an dog sanctuary.
finds solitude extremely soothing
loves writing/typing/texting in lower case.
highly interested in the theories of Fredrich Nietzsche and existentialism.
fan of German language and culture.
finds the fact that she is a cusp a unique feature of her life
God, friends, and family feature strongly in her life.
she likes referring to herself in third person, something most of her friends find freaky
has a death wish or so she thinks.


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jennifer
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john leo caines
josh
joy
j.low
kaleni
leigh-anne
mark tan
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1. 9/11 Commission Authorized Report
2. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
3. Human, All too Human - Friedrich Nietzsche
4. The Will to Power - Friedrich Nietzsche
5. Truth and Existence - J.P Sartre
6. Existentialism and Humanism - J.P Sartre
7. Fragile Things - Neil Gaiman
8. For One More Day - Mitch Albom
9. God is Dead
10. lullabies for little criminals - heather o'neill
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1. The Queen
2. Confession of Pain (Shang Chen)
3. The Protege (Men Tu)
4. The Last Dance

BIRTHDAYS

birthday tree
the boss - 4 Jan
Elvin - 8 Jan
Gill - 10 Jan
WeiXiang - 13 Jan
Sam - 14 Jan
the grosmer - 26 Jan
Aaron - 1 Feb
Ben Yap - 2 Feb
Hiu Tung- 5 Feb
Ja Jung - 7 Feb
Josh Hoe - 8 Feb
Weilin - 13 Feb
Auyong - 20 Feb
Ting ting si - 25 Feb
Jik Han - 28 Feb
Yin - 2 March
Cheryl - 3 March
Christine - 20 March
Kenneth - 21 March
Chere - 26 March
Terence, Judith - 29 March
Meeschell - 30 March
Lex - 1 April
Mishelle - 1 April
Druggie - 7 April
Liz - 16 April
Melissa - 18 April
John Leo - 26 April
Hye Ryoung/the bunny - 30 April
Josh - 13 May
Jevan,Andre - 16 May
Kat/Siti - 20 May
Martino - 21 May
Seb/Rebecca - 22 May
Teddy - 23 May
T.K - 27 May
Aidan,Hon - 29 May
Jiajia - 31 May
fairy - 7 June
Cow - 8 June
the poh - 5 july
Char & Char - 17 July
Aramis - 21 July
Feli, Josh & Joe Nair - 28 July
Jennifer - 31 July
Paul - 7 Aug
Auggie/En Wei - 9 Aug
Mao Mao Chen - 13 Aug
Thazin - 14 Aug
Gurion - 16 Aug
Bryan, Seon Mi, Yilin - 20 Aug
Alessa - 25 Aug
Val - 3 Sept
Guy, Jac - 11 Sept
Rachel - 12 Sept
Mi-ran - 14 Sept
the tigger - 15 sept
Ji Hynn - 17 Sept
Nalli, Yint Zin - 20 Sept
Hello Kitty - 23 Sept
Leigh / Noel- 24 Sept
Celine - 25 Sept
Vicky - 26/27 Sept
Wint - 30 Sept
Ren - 1 Oct
Grace - 1 Oct
Mi-Young - 2 Oct
Sharm - 8 Oct
Marky - 10 Oct
the owl - 13 Oct
Jacob,Grace - 22 Oct
the eeyore - 23 Oct
Xiaodi - 28 Oct
Bo Lui - 30 Oct
Victoria - 4 Nov
Van - 14 Nov
Hai Ming - 19 Nov
Sun Min - 26 Nov
Zin Mee - 28 Nov
J Low - 29 Nov
Joy - 5 Dec
Nian Ting - 7 Dec
Luke - 27 Dec
Andy gom/Jhi Sheng - 31 Dec

50 things before miche dies

1. tell all the people she loves, that she loves them dearly.
2. send a personalised note/letter/gift to all her good friends and people who have touched her life, telling them how important they are and how they have made her life worthwhile.
3. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her parents.
4. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her god-family.
5. save a stray dog or two.
6. travel to prague.
7. give my teddy bears away.
8. try to write a decent poem or short story.
9. pay attention in class for once.
10. learn to forgive herself and those who have perhaps done her wrong.
11. drive to thailand.
12. walk down orchard road dressed in pink and purple only.
13. picnic by the beach
14. finish reading "dreams of the red chamber" in chinese
15. get the giant teddy bear i always wanted.
16. perform one last time
17. buy a dress / skirt
18. watch a cheesy, tacky, gawdy comedy - BRUNO or TROPIC THUNDER
19. pat a snake
20. throw a party on a bus
21. sky dive and bungee jump
22. walk all around singapore - halfway there
23. eat nothing but vegetables for a week - kinda stop eating
24. burn all her photos, diaries and letters. delete this blog.
25. cry with all her might
26. be happy and try to stay happy till the end
27. be amazed by the simple things in life
28. sleep at least 8 hours per day and not more than 10 for a week
29. write a letter to johnny depp
30. plant something
31. be a organ donor, give whatever can still be used. (not my liver though, too much alcohol in it)
32. get blind drunk, like seriously blind drunk
33. draw/paint/compose a last picture
34. she hates taking pictures, but yeah, take a picture with all her loved ones.
35. be totally ladylike for a whole day. (i.e. dont swear, curse or be mean)
36. cycle to changi and back.
37. attend church everyday
38. take all the bus services available in singapore
39. get 2 tattoos
40. buy cup noodles and eat them by the roadside. well i ate by the beach, doesnt count right
41. colour her hair in multi-hues
42. draw up a will
43. climb a tree
44. remember to smile.
45. compete in one last basketball tournament
46. debate competitively one last time
47. eat all the gelato she wants
48. eat all the dairy products she wants
49. celebrate the life that's been
50. Thank God.
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