Saturday, March 26, 2005 @11:33 PM
from now till the penultimate week in april, my life shall be dominated by two things and two things only.
my studies and debates
i figured that i no longer have the time or energy for any form of emotional philosophizing abt how tired and weary i am.
besides i figured that the people who these are directed cant be bothered abt it so yeah..ahaha
i am really thankful to God that i have the handful of GREAT friends who truly care, no matter how whiny and grouchy i get. or when i am so stressed that i go high, do and say silly nonsense. i dont have to say it out right..you know who you are. =) actually i feel kinda bad..this is like easter weekend and i am here slogging away instead of giving thanks and remembering Christ. =( told you i was a Terrible Christian...God is so not going to heed and grant me my prayers for this week.
anyway, hey thanks yeah for all the help in the case and my essay =)sorry for stealing yours books...if there is anything i am thankful for last year is to have you two as friends.
life goes on... =) no matter how down, sad or depressed you are. find the courage to on and life will one day be brighter.
right here i go again. haha weird.
nights everyone.
miche says goodbye
Friday, March 25, 2005 @11:22 PM
i feel so pathetic cos my com is down so i am hopping from my friends' houses to use the comp. haha...=)
i have these MUCH work to complete:
Tragedy Essay (1 April) 1500 minimum
19th C Essay (2 April) 1200
Pol Science Essay (28 Mar) 1500 minimum
Sing Lit (11 April)2000 words
in addition. i have, one test on 2 april
two more class presentations.
One terribly pathetic life.
someone give me hug...bleah and not from people who cant be bothered to care. hahaha...
i want my spongebob! bryan you are going to get it from me for taking al and val away tmrw!
Thursday, March 17, 2005 @5:23 PM
i am amused. some people have time to blog abt the kind of girls they meet and yet they dont have the time to call out of courtsey or even call and check for training.
i am so amused. oh well, i guess if that is there priorities.
some people should know that when i stop getting annoyed, irritated or angry with stupid things that you do and i start to find it hilarious, it is a sign that i have lost interest. lost concern.
@1:41 AM
think i am too intense, take life and things and everyone too seriously.
think it is time for me to leave people who cant be bothered alone
think i shouldnt be breaking my back for people who are unappreciative or ungrateful
think it is time i do something for myself and not think of others all the time
think i want to put an end to all these nonsense that have been happening
think it's time to stop being softhearted and give in
think it is time that my tiredness and weariness shows.
had a great time at sentosa today! hahah bumming around although my namesake was hilarious, and yes Josh is her new best friend. see see hahah!
Oh i forgot! Congrats to Sam, Paul, Sean , Lloyd and the other guy on the team whom i dont know. hahah is it Cranshaw?
Monday, March 14, 2005 @10:41 AM
This is going to be a gruesome entry:
was watching a show last night and one character's leg was amputated in full glory of the watching viewer. So i was just wondering. erm what do the hospital do with the amputated limbs? hmmm...
just a really morbid thought.
anyway, think that you guys should read
Brandby
Henrik Ibsen. that guy Brand i mean reminds me of someone i know hahah...=) one of those out there.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005 @11:40 AM
Paradox of man
Man strives to be different in many ways and in that process we all become the same in wanting to be different.
In the end, the way to rebel and revolt is to conform and in conformity we find the ways to be rebel.
How ironic isnt it?
To bear bear,
Cheer up, some people just dont know better, trust me i get it alot. =) hugs.
Sunday, March 06, 2005 @1:02 AM
i cant say for sure how much i really mean to many of you. As a friend, as mentor, as a older person who acts like your elder sister in many circumstances. but i guess i can safely say that you guys know what my main principles in life are and what i really stand for.
i have been hearing comments from others who i feel in someway have grossly imposed a very wrong reading of my character, intentions and motivations on me. To be fair to them, it really isnt entirely their fault. but yeah, these people aint exactly close friends of mine, but yeah people i got to know through the course of my ac days
first things first, i hope i have not in anyway attempted to cultivate any form of unnecessary competition and rivalry between you guys.
second, i dont craved for any form of idolization or adoration from any one or everyone.
besides, i think i need a breather. =) haha
and yeah, i had it all figured out. should i decide disappear for a while one day. i really dont think you will find me. =) my closest friends are not debaters and only one of them has contact with my family. hahahah
anyway, intepretations imposed by others on you is just like how, modern critics over read into texts. hahah and yes, words are the only things that frame our existence and maybe the world we live in. see, i do study and pay attention in class. well only to things that make me sound intellectual.
Wednesday, March 02, 2005 @2:59 AM
Blurry"
Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
[Chorus]
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway
[Chorus]
This pain you gave to me
You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
before anyone of you think i am going to like disappear on you or like kill myself. be rest assured the song is only there cause i like the song. nothing more seriously nothing more. and yes if i am to disappear hahah i wont let you know! haha where's the fun in that?
Tuesday, March 01, 2005 @11:46 PM
I dont value a person for their personal achivements as much as i value a person for his strength of character, integrity and at the end of the day humility.
If i dont value a normal person by that, i value a debater much less than him/her being a best speaker. my personal opinion, people who are only interested in captaincy and best speakers are the worst debaters around. really, i dont care if you are the captain or if you are the best speaker of that round. so what if you are best speaker if your team loses, or if you cant even respect or honour the instructions given to you by your coach or by your seniors? being best speaker means nothing if you cant handle it with humility or recognise that you couldnt have attained it if you hadnt had the help from your teammates and friends.
humility is extremely important. not only in a debater but also as a person. know when you show your ego know when to shut up and be humble. really, flaunt only when you have it. but then again, those who have it, never flaunts it and when they do. it is for a right reason.