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Saturday, March 26, 2005 @11:33 PM

from now till the penultimate week in april, my life shall be dominated by two things and two things only.

my studies and debates

i figured that i no longer have the time or energy for any form of emotional philosophizing abt how tired and weary i am.

besides i figured that the people who these are directed cant be bothered abt it so yeah..ahaha

i am really thankful to God that i have the handful of GREAT friends who truly care, no matter how whiny and grouchy i get. or when i am so stressed that i go high, do and say silly nonsense. i dont have to say it out right..you know who you are. =) actually i feel kinda bad..this is like easter weekend and i am here slogging away instead of giving thanks and remembering Christ. =( told you i was a Terrible Christian...God is so not going to heed and grant me my prayers for this week.

anyway, hey thanks yeah for all the help in the case and my essay =)sorry for stealing yours books...if there is anything i am thankful for last year is to have you two as friends.


life goes on... =) no matter how down, sad or depressed you are. find the courage to on and life will one day be brighter.

right here i go again. haha weird.


nights everyone.


miche says goodbye

Friday, March 25, 2005 @11:22 PM

i feel so pathetic cos my com is down so i am hopping from my friends' houses to use the comp. haha...=)


i have these MUCH work to complete:

Tragedy Essay (1 April) 1500 minimum

19th C Essay (2 April) 1200

Pol Science Essay (28 Mar) 1500 minimum

Sing Lit (11 April)2000 words

in addition. i have, one test on 2 april

two more class presentations.

One terribly pathetic life.



someone give me hug...bleah and not from people who cant be bothered to care. hahaha...

i want my spongebob! bryan you are going to get it from me for taking al and val away tmrw!

Thursday, March 17, 2005 @5:23 PM

i am amused. some people have time to blog abt the kind of girls they meet and yet they dont have the time to call out of courtsey or even call and check for training.


i am so amused. oh well, i guess if that is there priorities.


some people should know that when i stop getting annoyed, irritated or angry with stupid things that you do and i start to find it hilarious, it is a sign that i have lost interest. lost concern.

@1:41 AM

think i am too intense, take life and things and everyone too seriously.

think it is time for me to leave people who cant be bothered alone


think i shouldnt be breaking my back for people who are unappreciative or ungrateful


think it is time i do something for myself and not think of others all the time


think i want to put an end to all these nonsense that have been happening


think it's time to stop being softhearted and give in


think it is time that my tiredness and weariness shows.


had a great time at sentosa today! hahah bumming around although my namesake was hilarious, and yes Josh is her new best friend. see see hahah!


Oh i forgot! Congrats to Sam, Paul, Sean , Lloyd and the other guy on the team whom i dont know. hahah is it Cranshaw?

Monday, March 14, 2005 @10:41 AM

This is going to be a gruesome entry:


was watching a show last night and one character's leg was amputated in full glory of the watching viewer. So i was just wondering. erm what do the hospital do with the amputated limbs? hmmm...

just a really morbid thought.


anyway, think that you guys should read BrandbyHenrik Ibsen. that guy Brand i mean reminds me of someone i know hahah...=) one of those out there.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005 @11:40 AM

Paradox of man



Man strives to be different in many ways and in that process we all become the same in wanting to be different.


In the end, the way to rebel and revolt is to conform and in conformity we find the ways to be rebel.


How ironic isnt it?


To bear bear,


Cheer up, some people just dont know better, trust me i get it alot. =) hugs.

Sunday, March 06, 2005 @1:02 AM

i cant say for sure how much i really mean to many of you. As a friend, as mentor, as a older person who acts like your elder sister in many circumstances. but i guess i can safely say that you guys know what my main principles in life are and what i really stand for.


i have been hearing comments from others who i feel in someway have grossly imposed a very wrong reading of my character, intentions and motivations on me. To be fair to them, it really isnt entirely their fault. but yeah, these people aint exactly close friends of mine, but yeah people i got to know through the course of my ac days


first things first, i hope i have not in anyway attempted to cultivate any form of unnecessary competition and rivalry between you guys.


second, i dont craved for any form of idolization or adoration from any one or everyone.


besides, i think i need a breather. =) haha

and yeah, i had it all figured out. should i decide disappear for a while one day. i really dont think you will find me. =) my closest friends are not debaters and only one of them has contact with my family. hahahah


anyway, intepretations imposed by others on you is just like how, modern critics over read into texts. hahah and yes, words are the only things that frame our existence and maybe the world we live in. see, i do study and pay attention in class. well only to things that make me sound intellectual.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005 @2:59 AM

Blurry"


Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl


You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that's not very far


Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well ya shoved it my face


Everyone is changing
there's noone left that's real
to make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl


You could be my someone
you could be my scene
you know that i will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far


[Chorus]


Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
told you when to runaway
nobody told you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to runaway


[Chorus]


This pain you gave to me


You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me




before anyone of you think i am going to like disappear on you or like kill myself. be rest assured the song is only there cause i like the song. nothing more seriously nothing more. and yes if i am to disappear hahah i wont let you know! haha where's the fun in that?

Tuesday, March 01, 2005 @11:46 PM

I dont value a person for their personal achivements as much as i value a person for his strength of character, integrity and at the end of the day humility.

If i dont value a normal person by that, i value a debater much less than him/her being a best speaker. my personal opinion, people who are only interested in captaincy and best speakers are the worst debaters around. really, i dont care if you are the captain or if you are the best speaker of that round. so what if you are best speaker if your team loses, or if you cant even respect or honour the instructions given to you by your coach or by your seniors? being best speaker means nothing if you cant handle it with humility or recognise that you couldnt have attained it if you hadnt had the help from your teammates and friends.

humility is extremely important. not only in a debater but also as a person. know when you show your ego know when to shut up and be humble. really, flaunt only when you have it. but then again, those who have it, never flaunts it and when they do. it is for a right reason.

PROFILE
miche:highly eclectic personality:stationery junkie
loves notebooks, the smell of printed-paper and ink makers.
her first love in life is basketball.
enjoys the intellectual adrenaline of debating, the beauty of theatre and music.
loves rainy days and blue skies
an avid reader, collector of teddy bears.
wants to build an dog sanctuary.
finds solitude extremely soothing
loves writing/typing/texting in lower case.
highly interested in the theories of Fredrich Nietzsche and existentialism.
fan of German language and culture.
finds the fact that she is a cusp a unique feature of her life
God, friends, and family feature strongly in her life.
she likes referring to herself in third person, something most of her friends find freaky
has a death wish or so she thinks.

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jennifer
ji hyun
john leo caines
josh
joy
j.low
kaleni
leigh-anne
mark tan
melissa
meirlin's earrings enteprise
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birthday tree
the boss - 4 Jan
Elvin - 8 Jan
Gill - 10 Jan
WeiXiang - 13 Jan
Sam - 14 Jan
the grosmer - 26 Jan
Aaron - 1 Feb
Ben Yap - 2 Feb
Hiu Tung- 5 Feb
Ja Jung - 7 Feb
Josh Hoe - 8 Feb
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Auyong - 20 Feb
Ting ting si - 25 Feb
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Cow - 8 June
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Val - 3 Sept
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the tigger - 15 sept
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Celine - 25 Sept
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Wint - 30 Sept
Ren - 1 Oct
Grace - 1 Oct
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Sharm - 8 Oct
Marky - 10 Oct
the owl - 13 Oct
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the eeyore - 23 Oct
Xiaodi - 28 Oct
Bo Lui - 30 Oct
Victoria - 4 Nov
Van - 14 Nov
Hai Ming - 19 Nov
Sun Min - 26 Nov
Zin Mee - 28 Nov
J Low - 29 Nov
Joy - 5 Dec
Nian Ting - 7 Dec
Luke - 27 Dec
Andy gom/Jhi Sheng - 31 Dec

50 things before miche dies

1. tell all the people she loves, that she loves them dearly.
2. send a personalised note/letter/gift to all her good friends and people who have touched her life, telling them how important they are and how they have made her life worthwhile.
3. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her parents.
4. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her god-family.
5. save a stray dog or two.
6. travel to prague.
7. give my teddy bears away.
8. try to write a decent poem or short story.
9. pay attention in class for once.
10. learn to forgive herself and those who have perhaps done her wrong.
11. drive to thailand.
12. walk down orchard road dressed in pink and purple only.
13. picnic by the beach
14. finish reading "dreams of the red chamber" in chinese
15. get the giant teddy bear i always wanted.
16. perform one last time
17. buy a dress / skirt
18. watch a cheesy, tacky, gawdy comedy - BRUNO or TROPIC THUNDER
19. pat a snake
20. throw a party on a bus
21. sky dive and bungee jump
22. walk all around singapore - halfway there
23. eat nothing but vegetables for a week - kinda stop eating
24. burn all her photos, diaries and letters. delete this blog.
25. cry with all her might
26. be happy and try to stay happy till the end
27. be amazed by the simple things in life
28. sleep at least 8 hours per day and not more than 10 for a week
29. write a letter to johnny depp
30. plant something
31. be a organ donor, give whatever can still be used. (not my liver though, too much alcohol in it)
32. get blind drunk, like seriously blind drunk
33. draw/paint/compose a last picture
34. she hates taking pictures, but yeah, take a picture with all her loved ones.
35. be totally ladylike for a whole day. (i.e. dont swear, curse or be mean)
36. cycle to changi and back.
37. attend church everyday
38. take all the bus services available in singapore
39. get 2 tattoos
40. buy cup noodles and eat them by the roadside. well i ate by the beach, doesnt count right
41. colour her hair in multi-hues
42. draw up a will
43. climb a tree
44. remember to smile.
45. compete in one last basketball tournament
46. debate competitively one last time
47. eat all the gelato she wants
48. eat all the dairy products she wants
49. celebrate the life that's been
50. Thank God.
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