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Tuesday, July 27, 2004 @2:47 PM

no one to share my bee hoon and chicken nuggets anymore. no one to fight and tussle with when i am bored at home. no longer heard the pattering sounds of her feet around the house, or her barks or the sound of her wagging her tail against the bed.

the image of her lying on the operation table keeps playing in my mind. i watched her die and i couldnt do a single thing. i stood her and watched her die.

i miss Junior terribly. and i cant stop crying.

Monday, July 26, 2004 @12:31 PM

My beloved Junior just passed away today. All of a sudden. She just died. i feel so lost without her. i want my Junior back.

@1:34 AM

a few things:
  1. i am still coughing nonstop the whole day and it only seem to get worse. i get breathless too. hmm might be bronchitis or peumonia. sighs.
  2. you know you should start to freak out when your ex-bf who has not spoken to you for FOUR years calls and asked if you have recently changed your room curtains.
  3. your dog who pees on you, pukes on you as well. TWICE. guess what. mich is sleeping outside on my sofa bed. thanks to my dog.
  4. i have not read my book "heart of darkness yet." grumble.
  5. i just coughed again. sighs.

Mich wants some comfort. i am so sick. *bleah* *cough cough*  


Sunday, July 25, 2004 @3:24 AM

my throat seriously hurts and i have been coughing non-stop...and it hurts my chest whenever i coughed. oh well. i am in a melancholic and pondering mood at the moment. i guess, seeing people i dont wish to see on friday night and not going for jcdc today made me ponder. ponder and think about many things. and all of a sudden i feel lost and empty.



Saturday, July 24, 2004 @4:50 PM

apologies to DEP kids....i am running a fever thanks to my inflamed throat. sorry sorry that's why i din turn up to day at bishan

ACJC WON PLAY OF THE YEAR AGAIN!!!!!! hahaha i was there yesterday and i knew the results before hand!!!!! hahahaha....

they cut the tress in front of my house i am so upset cos there are no longer trees in front of my room. stupid town counciil forever doing things that dont make sense, =(

throat hurts, write more later.

IAN IS A NOT A MUGGER! HE IS A SUPER MUGGER!!!!!!

Thursday, July 22, 2004 @3:30 AM

I have been awake for 48 hours. how fun. going to bed now.

Anis, i hate sch have to change my time table again.

Jevan, yes we can have our Barker Movie Marathon...question is who will turn up and whose house are we going to use? (Mugger Ian would want to watch boring shows and i will end up laughing at him anyway) oh BTW thank heavens you didnt get the MR/Ms Teen nonsense. It was BAD. Msg me what time can...so i'll try but it would be so awkward for me to be there =P

Mark! hahah yes so you would remain youhful!

Leigh_anne: must be magnanimous to the barker boys if not i have to listen to their jealous XP rantings again. hahaha

48 Hours. Bed now i come.

Wednesday, July 21, 2004 @4:08 AM

In my serious ambitions to do well next sem, (cos i decided to stop being a slacker)...this is my ideal time. (Ideal if i get all the modules intend to.)
 
Monday:
(since my day is already wasted might as well take another module)
1400 - 1700: E-Lit Lecture: Feminism Text and Theory
1800 - 2000: Visual Images Lecture
 
Tuesday: (This is the kind of day i want! So i only have to go to sch for 3 days MAX!)
1000 - 1200: History Tutorial: Nation Building in Singapore
1200 - 1400: E-Lit Lecture: American Texts
1400 - 1600: Nation-building Lecture
 
Wed: Such a waste! Could have been a free day for me.
1000 - 1200: Visual Images(a)
1300 - 1400: American Political History Tutorial (ONLY TIME SLOT THAT FITS)
1500 - 1600: Asia American Lit (b)
 
Thur:(PROBLEMATIC DAY)
0900 - 1000: American Texts Tutorial
1000 - 1200: Asia American Lecture
1400 - 1500: Asia American (a) Tutorial
(squeeze in Barker Training here)
1800 - 2000: Visual Images (b) Tutorial
 
Fri:
1000 - 1200: American Political History Lecture
 
____________________________________________________________________
Those with an (a) / (b) are alternative slots for each other. And i have to bid to see if i can take 6 modules. I figured, why not do 6 now and have to worry next sem when com is on. =) Also, thanks to the screwed up time tabling...i have to take govt and politics in singapore next sem. actually i want to take american law, language and gender too (I get to learn about gay rights!!!!) sighs... next sem next sem. I only hope that becos Visual Images is at such a B***** time i will be able to get the module. actually i can have weds and fris free. but I WANT TO TAKE AMERICAN POLITICAL HISTORY!!!!! I CANNOT RESIST. urgh...for the sake of my interest i have to sacrifice my time. =P 
 
See you barker boys...i squeeze you in my time table so that training days dont have to change. it means i have to rush like shit man. =P
 
Also, I am trying to keep my wed afternoons free just in case i am needed for something =)
 
I am breaking my principles man. I am breaking my principles. I DONT GO TO SCHOOL FOR MORE THAN TWO DAYS IF I CAN HELP IT!!!! NOW I AM IN SCHOOL ALMOST EVERYDAY! mich must be disciplined. must be very disciplined. no more slacking and not reading your texts. mich must be a studious mugger. DAMN I AM SUCH A GEEK and to think i always laugh at IAN. *bleah*
 
oh well. i guess i cant be slacker no more. this is not good for me. =(

Saturday, July 17, 2004 @11:10 PM

I am damn pissed now. I just typed a damn long entry and it is all gone! damn the server again. fed up..going to shorten the whole thing.

Met Char Low, Val, Aleesa, Leigh-Anne at one in town.
Some guy gave aleesa a whole bunch of balloons and some other guy tried to get her to queue for free coffee.
Walked to cine. sushi bar did not have buffet. walked back to heeren, aleesa went to get some more ballons (which she gave away later. sighs!)
sakae did not have buffet.
took bus to meridian.
as usual leigh-anne in sushi bar is funny. this time, aleesa picked up a toddler. he asked her for a "date".
walked to PS to get char's earrings
Walked back to cine to meet char neo.
took neoprints.
alessa, char low left for church
took neo prints again.
char neo left for tuition.
walked to espirit
leigh-anne tried weird looking skirt and walked out in it looking us the two of us.
val and mich tried hide from leigh-anne
walked to heeren again to take neos
leigh-anne buys a ring.
leigh-anne gets jealous of a manequin.
val moves into heeren; bench in front of bods.bodynits.
leigh-anne hugs weird looking "guy" at paragon and "washes her clothes"
spiderman drops by for a visit.
laughs at leigh-anne all the way to the busstop and abandoned her.
took bus back with val.
came home. took out contacts, changed into berms. went out for dinner
got home.
blogged. lost an entry. damn pissed.
oh well. going to upload pics, but where is leigh-anne? hmmm...

Friday, July 16, 2004 @9:02 PM

hahah...i have decided...since my lesbopartner wants to be a girl girl...i shall be a guy tmrw!! hahah then we can talk lesbo pictures hahaha..h well...i have no clothes to wear lah..that's why =) bleah.
 
Anyway, Char, Char,Leigh-Anne, Val and the rest...tmrw we are meeting at one in front of heeren first kay! =) see you there!
 
michy is bored....hahahah

Wednesday, July 14, 2004 @11:02 PM

Leigh-Anne says to Mich: "Eh Michy you know if i charge a dollar for everytime you laughed at me today, i could pay for this meal!" (at sushi tei far east)

Ooohhh....I roamed town with Char Neo and Leigh-Anne today, one to get char neo's pressie. two to get char low's pressie. three to satisfy Leigh-anne cos she was suffering from neoprint withdrawal symptons. so we roamed town.

leigh-anne made us take 18 shots for the neoprints...*looks at leigh-anne* and after that as we were decorating the pics (actually it was only leigh-anne and char), char wrote "La Char Mich" on one of the neoprints and leigh-anne commented that it looked french. so when auyong called later when we were espirit, we made her ask him what it was. he asked if it was cantonese...we were like erm....so he said it sounded like dirty mich...*mich glares at auyong*haha oh well.

and so we walked and we walked and we walked. we reached far east (this is like very shortened man...cos leigh-anne kept grilling us abt someone and someone. ahem ahem.)we decided to go to sushi tei for tea. (which turned out to be one of the most expensive teas man) so we realised that leigh-anne was unusually high and excited and we wondered why. hahah then we found out. she has never been to sushi tei before and all she could say at first was "I'm never going to Sakae Sushi again". All she had ate was TWO PLATES OF TAMAGO MAKI. later on when we were chatting, we reaches over calls out in wonderment "What's That! What's That!" so me and char look at her rather bewildered. Char then wanted Ebi Tempura, leigh-anne looks at us very innocently. "What is that? we started giggling...oohh...while waiting for the tempura to arrive...the sushi plate with the sashimi pictures came by..leigh-anne goes "Oh my gosh,that thing is $7"..we looked at her and realised that she was refering to the picture and not the sashimi.

I then took a plate of seaweed and i realised that leigh-anne dips everything she eats in soy sauce, even seaweed. She says "Life is short, eat lah" me and char exchange looks.. and we started laughing again! Leigh-anne is another gem man. she is. Auyong is she like that with you?

We took the bus to holland v.there i met quite a few of my friends. Ben teo (whom Leigh-anne thinks is a paedophile) Wai Chong (my friend who was on Eye for a gal, leigh-anne kept eyeing him and as i was talking to him, she is whispering at the back, i know hom k know him....haha) so when wai walked away she immediately as in immediately, "He was in Eye for a Guy right. and he was the one who dumped that girl right" hah..and as we were walking to the busstop, she was telling us abt her and auyong and how they went to east coast beach....hahha we kept laughing..and we kept giving her looks...hhaha... =) ooh...

so Leigh-anne likes soy sauce. hahah Hmmm i wonder if auyong knows it. hahah and oh it must be jap soy sauce.

Muackz...i love leigh-anne.
time to go and chase the dog to give her the medication.

@12:14 AM

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@12:03 AM

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004 @10:47 PM

Today must be one of the most embarassing days of my life.

I had to bring my dog junior to the vet, cos she had a swollen ear. So we went. The silly dog went into the consultation room and refuse to get on to the table and when the vet wanted to take a look at her ear she tried to bite him. So of course i had to carry her,guess what my silly dog did then, she was so afraid she peed on me. not once...but three times...she peed on me three times. sighs..she got angry with me for bringing her to the vet..i was like huh? for you sake man..she doesnt want to look at me now...ahah for the last 6 hours she has ignored me....what a dog..sighs what a dog... =P oh well...

ooohh....i got my jumbo markers!!! ahahha *winks* happily.
and oh i really hate friendster!!!

My Silly Dog: JUNIOR










@4:54 AM

"Rain"

I feel it, it's coming

[Chorus:]

Rain, feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love's coming down like
Rain, wash away my sorrow
Take away my pain
Your love's coming down like rain

When your lips are burning mine
And you take the time to tell me how you feel
When you listen to my words
And I know you've heard, I know it's real
Rain is what this thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

[chorus]

When you looked into my eyes
And you said goodbye could you see my tears
When I turned the other way
Did you hear me say
I'd wait for all the dark clouds bursting in a perfect sky
You promised me when you said goodbye
That you'd return when the storm was done
And now I'll wait for the light, I'll wait for the sun
Till I feel your

[chorus]

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say, never go away

Waiting is the hardest thing
(It's strange I feel like I've known you before)
I tell myself that if I believe in you
(And I want to understand you)
In the dream of you
(More and more)
With all my heart and all my soul
(When I'm with you)
That by sheer force of will
(I feel like a magical child)
I will raise you from the ground
(Everything strange)
And without a sound you'll appear
(Everything wild)
And surrender to me, to love

Rain is what the thunder brings
For the first time I can hear my heart sing
Call me a fool but I know I'm not
I'm gonna stand out here on the mountain top
Till I feel your

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like
[repeat]

[chorus]

Rain, I feel it, it's coming
Your love's coming down like
[repeat]

Rain

@1:13 AM

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Three different names....hahah told you guys i was weird...hahah =)


@12:09 AM

it is either me or the friendster server sucks big time. First, you guys who added me to your acct is still known as pending confirmation on mine. Second, i cant seem to add david and i think neither can he add me to his acct. third, i dont seem to have received any testimonials or the stupid thing aint showing up. fourth, my pics keeps getting screwed up on my browser. i am so pissed with the stupid thing. hmmm...grumble..

ooo....i want the whole set of jumbo markers....but i'm so broke...not paid yet.... =(


DEP KIDS: READ and PASS THE WORD, then drop me a msg on my phone.

Training this saturday is cancelled in view of HC Invitationals. Please msg me to tell me if you would rather have training on sunday (as in the day after HC) or on a weekday.

ONLY FOR THE IJ GIRLS only:
Since DEP is cancelled, lets go roam town and take silly pictures!!! =) Tell me lah kay. before i start sch tooo and have no time =). i resolved to get onto the dean's list next term!!!!!

Saturday, July 10, 2004 @3:51 AM

more hilarious stuff now...hahah i am randomly surfing on friendster and i kinda stumbled upon myat san, cos apparently, hahah we like the same books!!!! hahaha

@12:24 AM

Surrealism man. surrealism..oh well...

last night, i recieved a msg from my ex. ahem, someone whom if i had the choice, would rather pretend that he did not exist. i dont know to be amused, guilty or sad. i think i reduced him to mere nothing but how glad am i that we broke up man. how glad. long long story lah...haha...oh well. i can only say that if we hang on together right, i would have murdered myself. we really belong to two different worlds man. anyway, he called and we talked on really silly things...hahha...that was rather hilarious, i remembered that when we were together, he used to say he din want to talk and he hated talking and he would call and not say anything to me at all on the phone and now. if seems as if he so wanted to talk to me. sighs dont know lah. what i would never forget (and forgive perhaps) is the fact that he once boasted to my friends that the reason why he went out with me was because i was so aloof and cold to everyone and to date me means that he was different from the rest. sighs..oh well. man. then he would tell me things like oh you should be happy that there are other girls who like me. that means your boyfriend is good stuff. i dont know why i went out with him...oh well.

Anyway, it seems to me that quite a few of you aint in high spirits recently...cheer up and just remember that michy's handphone is on 24 hours...call anything if you want to talk, even if it means that all you want is for someone to hear you. dont be so down alright. I love you guys!

Thursday, July 08, 2004 @5:59 PM

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This is damn funny! My brother is also my boyfriend! hahahah !!!

@5:11 PM

How can? it is your birthdays man! haha... it is your special day man! =)

Wednesday, July 07, 2004 @1:43 AM

Oh my god. i almost forgot, Char and Char we will go shopping for your birthday pressies together okay cos i suck at buying anything for people. =)

@1:15 AM

後來

*後來 我總算學會了 如何去愛
可惜你 早已遠去 消失在人海
後來 終於在眼淚中明白
有些人 一旦錯過就不再

梔子花 白花瓣 落在我藍色百褶裙上
愛你 你輕聲說
我低下頭 聞見一陣芬芳
那個永恆的夜晚 十七歲仲夏
你吻我的那個夜晚
讓我往後的時光 每當有感嘆
總想起 當天的星光

那時候的愛情 為什麼就能那樣簡單
而又是為什麼 人年少時
一定要讓深愛的受傷
在這相似的深夜裡 你是否一樣
也在靜靜追懷感傷
如果當時我們能 不那麼倔強
現在也 不那麼遺憾

#你都如何回憶我 帶著笑或是很沉默
這些年來 有沒有人能讓你不寂寞

重唱 *,#,*,*

永遠不會再重來
有一個男孩 愛著那個女孩

@12:51 AM

sometimes i cant believe how weird entire NUS can get. Well well, the newly renovated library looks really cool, equipped with like tens of thousands of multiple work stations and cool new ways of catloguing their books,not to mention the really funky REFRESHMENT CORNER complete with COOL, SOFT and ever so WELCOMING cushy arm chairs. and seriously man, they have almost everything you want there save for the trashy novels. but anyway, back to my point, i went there again today after spending two hours there yesterday (note: i dont go back to nus on my vacation ever. hem hem ) just to get the books that were there on the reading list. only to find that the course outline either had no reading list or the books i needed to get was guess where in the medicine and law library. how very wonderful i say how very wonderful.

i cant help but be amazed. anyway, i started another blog. for the fun of it cos i liked the template ahahah =). i'll write here dont worry.

hey AUYONG! haha i got the book you wanted for you and how come i am not on your list of linked blogs huh huh? *mich glares at auyong with a twinkle in her eye*

toodoodles, michy is off to read The Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison. By the way, this aint that book i thought it was. it is some african american lit text. heh heh.

Tuesday, July 06, 2004 @4:04 PM

Bart and skateboard.
Bart Simpson. The sneaky guy. You have some
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@6:28 AM

did i ever mention that i am a cusp in astrology terms? meaning i was born between the star signs and the best thing is i was born exactly in the middle of the star signs.

Taurus/Gemini
May 19 to May 23

Taurus is the second sign of the Zodiac. It begins to physically explore the world. Gemini is the third sign of the Zodiac. Moving beyond the physical exploration of Taurus, Gemini examines the world through intellect. Taurus/Geminis tend to be richly sensual, enjoy the good things in life and are fascinated with gathering as much information as possible. Their facility as communicators is unmatched. Taurus/Geminis display great imagination and tend to be very expressive, both physically and verbally.

The astrological symbol of Taurus is the Bull; Gemini is the Twins. The term bull-headed applies to Taureans in both its positive and negative connotations, and Taurus exemplifies the fixed quality assigned to it. Like twins, Geminis often have a dual nature and are skilled at seeing both sides of a problem, but they may also be fickle and restless. They are changeable and sometimes noncommittal. In this way, Gemini exemplifies the mutable quality assigned to it. The Taurus/Gemini is a pair of bullheaded twins. They are adaptable and able to tackle multiple tasks simultaneously, and they know how to reason with people. They are also among the strongest signs when it comes to meeting goals because of their reliable persistence.

Taurus is ruled by the planet Venus. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus (and her Greek equivalent, Aphrodite) was the goddess of love, beauty and pleasure. She represented joy, happiness and appreciation of beautiful things. On the negative side, her appreciation for sweets and luxury could result in overindulgence. Gemini is ruled by the planet Mercury. In ancient Roman mythology, Mercury (and his Greek equivalent, Hermes) was the messenger god. He was associated with travel and transportation. He was a communicator, quick-witted and inventive, but he could also be a smooth-talker and get bored easily. A Taurus/Gemini individual is most likely a brilliant conversationalist. Mediating or speech writing would be excellent outlets for these people, as they posses the gift of beautiful, soothing speech that can produce harmony and good feelings. Taurus/Geminis are charming and congenial, and they often have many friends and acquaintances in all areas of their lives. These people have learned to focus and use their intellect; they tend to be very successful.

The element associated with Taurus is earth. Earth signs are practical. The element associated with Gemini is air. Air signs are intellectual: Taurus/Geminis respond to the world through intellect and by examining the worth of each possible response. When presented with a new project, their mental abilities kick in and they join the group enthusiastically. They tend to be leaders, and their facility for abstract reasoning and broad-minded outlook enables Taurus/Geminis to make strong contributions to projects. Their ambition ensures that they are both hardworking and helpful to others.

Taurus/Geminis often remain youthful and lighthearted their entire lives, but their need for physical pleasure can lead to an overemphasis on money and accumulation of possessions. They may often invest in fast cars and other material means of stimulation. They are tolerant, gentle and dependable, but they may appear to be scattered and high-strung. Their many interests make them entertaining and loyal friends with a carefree and unpredictable twist.

In their leisure time, Taurus/Geminis tend to enjoy pairing up with a partner for recreation. Outdoor activities that allow them to get close to the earth are favorites. Their love for conversation and good food ensures that leisurely dinners with friends are highly enjoyable for them, and their inquisitive and literary orientation means they enjoy mentally challenging pursuits as well.

The great strengths of the Taurus/Gemini-born are their stability, perseverance, and their intellectual and conversational skills. They can analyze difficult ideas and communicate them clearly to others. Their methodical determination enables them to be productive when others have long since given up.


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@6:22 AM

yet again i am awake when you guys are just awekening to get to school. i just cant sleep and i dont know why. my brain cant stop moving. hmmm..anyway, hoped that sch will be good!

@4:28 AM

i love indulging myself in all these books that i want to read. i have managed to lay my hand onto The Road to Wigan Pier and Coming up for Air! i have come to realise that if i actually told people the kind of stuff i read for fun, i would most probably scare them away even more. i have been really bored these days and i have been surfing round the net for people's blogs to read as well as look at the silly profiles of my secondary school friends. OMG, it is painfully clear ever more so why i hated school so much. while i wrote that my fave author is George Orwell and Jeanette Winterson, they all claim,well almost all that expecting them to read is a great no-no. then comes fave music. hah! guess what 5566, F4 Nicholas Tse tops the list..me...oh well. bet they wont know who is Roxette. then comes drama and movies, do i need to say more? i think the only show that i have ever watched which is near their standards in Confessions of a Teenager Drama Queen . Michy winks at Nalli, Grace and Jolynn. ahem ahem. hahaha...oh well

i think the fact that these people keep bumping into me in the NUS library looking up books on Rousseau, Nietzche, Orwell or basically buried in 20th hist or international relations/ economics has already freaked them out and also the fact that i was in some of their tutorials. hmmm....oh well. i guess to each its own. but to tell the truth, sometimes i sprout philosophical nonsense and theories i learnt in debates just to scare them away. Revenge for all the names i was called by them in sec sch. Hah! The banana knows more than you! hehe...

be frankly man, do i really seem to be that weird and out of this world? hmm...i always wondered. Do i freak you guys out? Besides the one time i appeared in the IJ uniform that is. hahaha....

Monday, July 05, 2004 @3:19 AM

After Leigh-Anne's rather disturbing results, this is what i got:

[Raffles Institution]:
The top boys school known to others as geeks and
nerds. But really, there ARE cool ones.
[Good points]: freakingly smart, some cool ones,
humourous, nice if you are their friend, rich,
nice flaunting objects to flaunt to your
friends.
[Bad points]: ridiculously mean if you are an
enemy, big egos, being freakingly smart haha,
blunt, dim in certain things, sore to ACSI
guys' eyes.
[Dress Code]: Smartly dressed in all white shirts
and pants. Pants at waistline-hips normally. In
school: all shirts neatly tucked in. Outside
school: all shirts tucked completely out.
[hmm...nt a bad taste indeed. high quality
boys.Nice try.]


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Sunday, July 04, 2004 @11:39 PM

Hahah...

Nalli, i would call you if not for the fact that i know you are busy studying! aha and you never say hi to me on MSN anyway and i always say hi!. hahah but i do miss you...=( (HUGS)

Leigh-Anne, how come i didnt get an IJ bear? huh? huh? hahahah I love you too!...we must go out and watch movie...and Nalli, you are coming too!

Val, it is okay. dont worry abt it. pls take care of your throat yeah!

and yes, i think i will take govt and politics in singapore =)

Saturday, July 03, 2004 @3:18 AM

i should really stop spending my nights up,doing nothing but staring into the computer screen. sighs, i think i am really bored. why? hmmm let me see, well basically, all my good friends are attached and therefore are spending most of their daylight, and even non-daylight hours with their boyfriends whom they seem so terribly attached to. also because i truly have no one to hang out with.

sometimes i feel that because this blog is open to all of you guys, there are somethings that i cant write, or rather things that i would never write or put to words here. why simple cause, they are aint things which i should let you guys know. sometimes i have to admit that i am really guarded in the things i put up on the blog. i guess it is also because i try to be happy here, well at least for you guys.

if i were to be very very frank, i guess you guys would have a totally different impression of me. haha i dont know, but i guess to many of you i am some kind of big sister who listens to you, give you advice, spend time with you guys joking. well in a way i am. but there is also another part of me that many of you cannot famthom. it is a long long story.

i am thinking again. i dont know why, but i am thinking again. i have not really written for a long time. i just couldnt write anything at all. words just would not flow. i think the fact that most of my friends aint free for me has gotten me thinking again. i do that all the time when i am alone which is why after a while you would realise that the adults around me would not leave me to myself for long periods. cos i start to think.

oh well. that is life i guess. you know in some ways, as much as i dont not like being with children and kids (auyong this is all your doing!!!!! hahaha) i feel some kind of obigation to help them. hahah you guys wont believe it i was a havoc kid in sch not that i am not now. i think i have calmed down now, and i am more subdue in the way i choose to see and deal with things. maybe that is why most of you guys think that i am 28 or something. i am not that old!!! heh heh =)

auyong asked me something really interesting the other day. he asked me what are my views on BGR. what can i say man? my younger brother around your age group. sec three. angsty teenage pharse. hahha i have to deal with him everyday man. everyday. hahah =) oh well. i told auyong that i dont have strong views on it. and he asked why. no whys lah, most of us will go through it somehow,someway. some of us will have great memories of our "Chu Lian Qing Ren" and our first loves, which we will reminesces about years later and tell your kids about. while some would rather have a concussion and get anmesia and forget everything i know i would. hahah oh well. so why then should i have any objections. only one thing to say, be practical about the relationships you get into now. why? cos most of them wont last. =) painfully true. heh heh.

i might have had issues with staying in singapore. and i might hate the fact that i am seriously entrapped here. but you know something i am thankful, thankful that in return i have you guys as friends. truly, not saying this to make myself look like some kind of saint or what. i guess this is what GOD wanted me to stay for.

anyway, love you guys.

what would i be without you? hahah.

Friday, July 02, 2004 @11:03 PM

ich glaube einer Notwendigkeit, etwas auf Deutsch zu schreiben. Ja, ja. Ich habe meinen Deutsch vergessan. Das ist nicht gut. Sehr schlect. Ah, sowieso ich bin sehr bestchaftig. Ich habe eine Menge Arbeit durchzuführen. Das ist nicht gut.

Ich brauche meinen schlafen. müde, müde, müde

Das ist alles für heute. Ich schreibe später.

Tchüss!!


@6:54 PM

"She Doesn't Live Here Anymore"

We grew up together, we've been here forever.
Barefoot in the summer, cold in stormy weather.
She taught me all there is, like magic and love,
lots of forgotten words

But now, she doesn't live here anymore.
She's off and she's gone, she doesn't live here anymore.
I'm sorry that's all there is to it, I'm sorry that's all

She dressed just like a painter, a female street Picasso
and I, I will remember the heaven in her laughter.
And the scent of her sweet perfume when we made love
under an August moon

But now, she doesn't live here anymore.
She's off and she's gone, she doesn't live here anymore.
She's gone since long, so long, she doesn't live here anymore.
She took off and left home, she doesn't live here anymore.

I'm sorry that's all there is to it, I'm sorry that's all. That's all.

PROFILE
miche:highly eclectic personality:stationery junkie
loves notebooks, the smell of printed-paper and ink makers.
her first love in life is basketball.
enjoys the intellectual adrenaline of debating, the beauty of theatre and music.
loves rainy days and blue skies
an avid reader, collector of teddy bears.
wants to build an dog sanctuary.
finds solitude extremely soothing
loves writing/typing/texting in lower case.
highly interested in the theories of Fredrich Nietzsche and existentialism.
fan of German language and culture.
finds the fact that she is a cusp a unique feature of her life
God, friends, and family feature strongly in her life.
she likes referring to herself in third person, something most of her friends find freaky
has a death wish or so she thinks.

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YOUNG CHANGEMAKERS
NATIONAL YOUTH FORUM '06
POETRY
MUSIC
VIDEOS
adriel
alaric
alessa
aramis
auggie
bern
bryan
charleen
charlene
da jie
de winne
elizabeth
hye ryoung
jakee babee
jajung
jeannie
jennifer
ji hyun
john leo caines
josh
joy
j.low
kaleni
leigh-anne
mark tan
melissa
meirlin's earrings enteprise
michelle
mishelle
mi-young
paul
rae
sam
sonia
mr otaku
tae yeon
terence
valerie


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Book List

1. 9/11 Commission Authorized Report
2. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
3. Human, All too Human - Friedrich Nietzsche
4. The Will to Power - Friedrich Nietzsche
5. Truth and Existence - J.P Sartre
6. Existentialism and Humanism - J.P Sartre
7. Fragile Things - Neil Gaiman
8. For One More Day - Mitch Albom
9. God is Dead
10. lullabies for little criminals - heather o'neill
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Movies to Catch

1. The Queen
2. Confession of Pain (Shang Chen)
3. The Protege (Men Tu)
4. The Last Dance

BIRTHDAYS

birthday tree
the boss - 4 Jan
Elvin - 8 Jan
Gill - 10 Jan
WeiXiang - 13 Jan
Sam - 14 Jan
the grosmer - 26 Jan
Aaron - 1 Feb
Ben Yap - 2 Feb
Hiu Tung- 5 Feb
Ja Jung - 7 Feb
Josh Hoe - 8 Feb
Weilin - 13 Feb
Auyong - 20 Feb
Ting ting si - 25 Feb
Jik Han - 28 Feb
Yin - 2 March
Cheryl - 3 March
Christine - 20 March
Kenneth - 21 March
Chere - 26 March
Terence, Judith - 29 March
Meeschell - 30 March
Lex - 1 April
Mishelle - 1 April
Druggie - 7 April
Liz - 16 April
Melissa - 18 April
John Leo - 26 April
Hye Ryoung/the bunny - 30 April
Josh - 13 May
Jevan,Andre - 16 May
Kat/Siti - 20 May
Martino - 21 May
Seb/Rebecca - 22 May
Teddy - 23 May
T.K - 27 May
Aidan,Hon - 29 May
Jiajia - 31 May
fairy - 7 June
Cow - 8 June
the poh - 5 july
Char & Char - 17 July
Aramis - 21 July
Feli, Josh & Joe Nair - 28 July
Jennifer - 31 July
Paul - 7 Aug
Auggie/En Wei - 9 Aug
Mao Mao Chen - 13 Aug
Thazin - 14 Aug
Gurion - 16 Aug
Bryan, Seon Mi, Yilin - 20 Aug
Alessa - 25 Aug
Val - 3 Sept
Guy, Jac - 11 Sept
Rachel - 12 Sept
Mi-ran - 14 Sept
the tigger - 15 sept
Ji Hynn - 17 Sept
Nalli, Yint Zin - 20 Sept
Hello Kitty - 23 Sept
Leigh / Noel- 24 Sept
Celine - 25 Sept
Vicky - 26/27 Sept
Wint - 30 Sept
Ren - 1 Oct
Grace - 1 Oct
Mi-Young - 2 Oct
Sharm - 8 Oct
Marky - 10 Oct
the owl - 13 Oct
Jacob,Grace - 22 Oct
the eeyore - 23 Oct
Xiaodi - 28 Oct
Bo Lui - 30 Oct
Victoria - 4 Nov
Van - 14 Nov
Hai Ming - 19 Nov
Sun Min - 26 Nov
Zin Mee - 28 Nov
J Low - 29 Nov
Joy - 5 Dec
Nian Ting - 7 Dec
Luke - 27 Dec
Andy gom/Jhi Sheng - 31 Dec

50 things before miche dies

1. tell all the people she loves, that she loves them dearly.
2. send a personalised note/letter/gift to all her good friends and people who have touched her life, telling them how important they are and how they have made her life worthwhile.
3. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her parents.
4. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her god-family.
5. save a stray dog or two.
6. travel to prague.
7. give my teddy bears away.
8. try to write a decent poem or short story.
9. pay attention in class for once.
10. learn to forgive herself and those who have perhaps done her wrong.
11. drive to thailand.
12. walk down orchard road dressed in pink and purple only.
13. picnic by the beach
14. finish reading "dreams of the red chamber" in chinese
15. get the giant teddy bear i always wanted.
16. perform one last time
17. buy a dress / skirt
18. watch a cheesy, tacky, gawdy comedy - BRUNO or TROPIC THUNDER
19. pat a snake
20. throw a party on a bus
21. sky dive and bungee jump
22. walk all around singapore - halfway there
23. eat nothing but vegetables for a week - kinda stop eating
24. burn all her photos, diaries and letters. delete this blog.
25. cry with all her might
26. be happy and try to stay happy till the end
27. be amazed by the simple things in life
28. sleep at least 8 hours per day and not more than 10 for a week
29. write a letter to johnny depp
30. plant something
31. be a organ donor, give whatever can still be used. (not my liver though, too much alcohol in it)
32. get blind drunk, like seriously blind drunk
33. draw/paint/compose a last picture
34. she hates taking pictures, but yeah, take a picture with all her loved ones.
35. be totally ladylike for a whole day. (i.e. dont swear, curse or be mean)
36. cycle to changi and back.
37. attend church everyday
38. take all the bus services available in singapore
39. get 2 tattoos
40. buy cup noodles and eat them by the roadside. well i ate by the beach, doesnt count right
41. colour her hair in multi-hues
42. draw up a will
43. climb a tree
44. remember to smile.
45. compete in one last basketball tournament
46. debate competitively one last time
47. eat all the gelato she wants
48. eat all the dairy products she wants
49. celebrate the life that's been
50. Thank God.
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