Heyo everyone, my com has been sent for repair cos the D drive doesnt run and my USB ports are loose, so i am rather handicap for the next two weeks at least, so if you have anything just drop me an SMS or call me kay. love you all!!!

Dragon:
Dragons are very mysterious creatures who often
live alone in caves with hoards of gold. You
keep yourself from others and contain many
armoured plates for defence. However, you will
be kind to others if they are kind to you. You
are very thrifty and rarely waste any money.


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It is the birthday of my bestest teddy bear in the world. I love you teddy! Happy birthday, hope you are having fun with your friends today! must go out for lunch one day okay.

Hecate


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i just realised how many of our lives have changed course and direction over the years. and how many of my friends and i have chosen to take and lead our lives in a way that we never intended for it to be. how things change and really alter over the years.

All my life, since the day i was eight, i always wanted to be a lawyer, i still want to be a lawyer, but somehow not as much anymore. throughout school,i fought and struggled against everyone who told me that i can never be one. because the genes just dont run in the family. throughout school, i did things that would allow me the better chances to be a lawyer, to get into law school and to fulfill my ambition. for the last 12 years of my life.

when i was in sec three, i once said i would never go to ACJC, why because of the preconceptions that i was taught abt the very school i have came to love so much and so greatly. in sec four, i was determine to go to ACJC. why? cos sec school was really unbearable. i needed to go to a place that was on the opposite spectrum of where i already was. and also because of someone i really admired. Sam Saw. when i was in jc, i aspired to achieve everything that Sam had. Sam graduated the year i entered school. and i worked to be everything that Sam was. Captain of the school team, humans scholar, honours roll, performance arts, psc. in a way i achieved everything sam had just one notch lower. but still i felt satisfaction and it was then that i truly and really realised that grades aint everything.

in jc, i began to question whether i really wanted to be a lawyer. in the beginning of j2, i decided i want to study international relations. i want to be a diplomat, i wanted to work for MFA. i wanted to go boston. and i got boston, but i never went.

during the As, life was bad. why? cos i gave up. i was fighting at home, because i wanted to go and no one would let me. no one understood why i wanted to do what i desired to do. i gave up cos i thought that no one cared and it doesnt matter to anyone at all. i was in depression. i willed myself psychologically not to study, i came to class sat there in a daze from 8 to 5, for days in a row, that was all that i did. sat in class in a daze. not because i did not want to work, cos deep down i know that i wanted to. i couldnt sleep in the nights. i would sleep for two hours and sat in bed crying. sobbing cos i did not want to take my As. i was tired. well then, i killed the As. from the predicted 6 distinctions, i had 1. i killed history totally. from then i let go.

being a lawyer no longer mattered. being a diplomat was of secondary concern. being a scholar was something that vanished totally from my mind. i only had to hang on to what i could have. and now i am somewhere on the way to becoming a teacher. (something i said i would never be)

i know that you think that i should have done better for the last exams. i should really have gotten better grades as compared to what i have. but you know somehow, since the end of the As, i really come to realise that getting good grades no longer matter to me. i want to get them, but i want to do other thing more. and these other things matter more. things like helping the boys winning the championships, helping the ij girls. all these things make me much more happier. i dont mind the Ds and the Cs, cos i know that i have done something that helped someone else and i have touched the lives of some. not all but some. and i know i have gained friends that are extremely valuable. and all these aint done in vain. and so i dont regret. i know i will have to study harder and get better grades in the next year, but sometimes, school is so hard and i have no idea what i am really expected to do and what kind of answers i am suppose to give. my lit is so terrible and i really dread doing lit essays and exams. cos i dont know how to do them. but i guess i will have to hang on. and i guess at the end of the day, i will have to make sure that i get the As that are needed for me. cos i really need them. i need to honours. as a scholar i do. sometimes i am really at a loss and i dont know what to do and so i do what i did in school . dont study and dont do the course, dont go to class and lectures. but instead of wallowing in the misery of my pain and lack of interest in the subject i am made to study, i choose to redirect and refocus my attention to what i am really good at. and do what i want to do and do what i know i am interested in.

and i know, somewhere along the way, in the near future to come, i will change my course and direction. the journey would go another way eventually. but one thing i know. the people i have come to love, the people i have forged such cool and lasting friendships with will never change. all of you will always be part of my life. no matter what happens. i might be cold and grumpy at times, i might sulk and grumble. but at the end of the day i will always care.

i am bored. i am so bored. i am so so bored. i am so so so bored.

i decided to start a log book for the teams i work with. hahah grand plan...let's see how much i can finish in three months.

i am bored. i am so bored. i am so so bored. i am so so so bored.
there is nothing to watch there is nothing to read there is nothing to listen.

i am bored. i am so bored. i am so so bored. i am so so so bored.
i can only sigh.

i am bored. i am so bored. i am so so bored. i am so so so bored.

Somebody unbored me, please.Sighs again

I JUST CHECKED AND RECEIVED MY RESULTS FOR THE LAST SEMESTER!
PHEW MAN, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU GOD! I MANAGED TO KEEP WITHIN THE EXPECTED BAND FOR THE SCHOLARS! PHEW AGAIN.

for the rest of you who have no idea what i am talking abt. I am a teaching scholar...dont ask me why but i am one. so i have to maintain my grades at a standard that moe requires and stipulates. with it like one and a half times higher than the rest of the population put together

I am so glad to have my 3.5 3.5 3.5. hahahah a slight deprovement as compared to previous sem, but still it is good enough what with all the debate training and competitions, all you IJ girls and Barker boys. hahah worth the sacrifice lah, seeing how far all of you went!!!!! i am so so happy!

lalalala....I resolve to work harder next term. hahahaha
must pull average grade up no matter how. i swear man, i must

mich is going to meet nalli now for troy. =)

see all of you later!

it has been a long time since i last blogged. hehe...well i have been helping out at the JCs SYF Drama Central Judging so i have been busy lately. dead tired too...hahah five plays a day.

anyway,just got home i was out with Nalli and later sharm and grace came to meet us. we had fun walking round and laughing at someone's play. anyway, nalli is now a grandmother of HAMSTERS...hahah and we have certified that she is blind and really suck at determining genders. hahaha.....=) oh well.

haha, you know i have been thinking these days (yes, mich thinks about serious things as well. although i laugh and do weird and stupid things all the time around most of you i ponder seriously and i mean seriously.) sometimes we lament about how hard our lives are cos of studying exams and what not. and all my years of waliking down orchard road it never really struck me, how many roadside peddlers and street performers there are. maybe cos we never really see all of them all the time. the last few days, i have been seeing this young man, he doesnt look more than 17 sitting by the underpass to Lido, "begging" for money. and he had a card that said "Family poor. Brother sister not working.please help". then further down was a old lady with long hair selling tissues and then another older lady trying to sell goceries and small accessories. by the escalator to wheellock, there was an old man, selling tissues, his fingers were mere stumps and we really had to buy the tissues from him and he was so nice about it. it is quite disheartening if it is the right word to know that there are still so many people who are there need help but cant or dont know where to get help being stuck in this state. it is really sad and disconcerting. two things. two things

1. we either are doing too little for these people or there aint enough avenues for them to get access to these services and welfare help. this is what prompt me to be a social worker always. (ahem i might be rather evil and bitchy to some people, but i am actually very soft hearted when it comes to people who needs help, desperate extreme help. and i really do what to help them but somehow when it comes to it i feel really helpless and i can only buy their stuff. and it makes me really sad.)

2. we are really pampered and living in a comfortable world. all the worries and troubles we have are nothing compared to them. Most of these peddlers i meet, are either old, handicapped or uneducated such that they cant get a job or find work anywhere. in a way we cant never understand the kind of worries and troubles that they got through. while we sit here and worry about exam grades, DEP (haha teasing lah), which CD to buy, which notebook to get, whether the next debate would be good for us, these people out there are fending for their life and their next meal, we are worrying of things that are trival in comparison.

it is rather ironic and depressing actually, that they are right smack in the middle of town,surrounded by all these people who have the money to spare (well most) but people just dont do a single thing. sighs sighs sighs. i wonder why. we make such a show of giving so much money to people on the television when the actual people who need this money aint getting any. what a gracious society. it is all about the face. it is all about looking good. and standing by the side of the underpass to buy tissues or drop a coin, or buy a pack of biscuits does not look good.

well well well. all that i have said i cant do anything either.


sorry for the long deep and rather serious reflection but mich is disturbed.i am really in a dilemma

KENJI FUJIMA!!!!he is damn cool, he plays basketball with his left hand like me!!!!

my fave basketball comic character!!!!!

MICH IS BASKETBALL MAD!!!

ALL YOU CHILDREN OUT THERE WHO ARE HAVING EXAMS (lucky auyong! RI pple dont have midyears)

*Mich gives you a pat on the back and wishes you tons of good luck* and *mich hopes that you go and kick ass and top the school*

*mich tells nalli....dont fret about chinese...it is only chinese* hahah nalli should converse more with then you can get the distinction for oral...that is is the only thing i can do....heh heh talk. opps....smiles....

charleen: screw physics lah....like what i did ....hheh but then you are 3/1 student...very hard right

haha...the rest of you chio women.....hahah GOOD LUCK....

mich is bored again....=P

Postatem obscuri lateris nescitis.
"You do not know the power of the Dark
Side." There are two possibilities: you
are a Star Wars geek, or you are unreasoningly
scary.


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this is long overdue man....but i need a breather...after A div finals on Friday, i realised that it has been THREE WHOLE MONTHS of non-stop debating and there is more to come...

people should really believe me when i say that debate is a high stress and high energy sport. seriously all of you out there...it takes a lot of energy okay, we dont just sit there and talk *winks* you know i firmly believe that debaters should not marry each other..they will have terrible monsters for children who would tell their teacher "Why cant i talk, my daddy and mummy did that all the time when they were young and they won prizes for talking and talking and talking. I want to be like that". *zoom in on teacher's scrunched up and pained expression" hahah.....anyway, nalli got annyed with me last night cause i took to talking to her in third person. I like talking in third person, it is fun. anyway, michelle shall recount the events of her life for the last four days.

Friday night:
another AWESOME NIGHT...and mich means AWESOME....mich is so proud of all of them man....CHARLEEN, NALLI, JUDITH, VANESSA and STEPHANIE...you guys were fabulous!!!!! oh...and yes the RI boys too....congrats mich thinks you totally deserve the win and you guys really developed and changed so much over the tournament duration!!! anyway, back to the details.

so mich troops down to ACJC in the morning to get some stuff and then head to town to get errands done...mich had agreed to meet sharm and jolynn in town and to get to SRJC together. but she found herself free for 4 freaking hours before 5 and so she settled down in Mac's at Lucky Plaza and read comics. CHINESE COMICS, yes mich is a comic freak her friends usually stares at her in disbelief when they find the shelves of chinese comics she has at home...and not to mention her school team jerseys...hahaha

so she sat there and read and read and read....then at four she went to collect her tics for SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER(it is unbelievably perfect!!!!) and she went to change into the IJ uni....hahah mich walked round wisma for a while in it....rather amused at the fact she look at least 5 years younger ( i think it helps cause she is so freaking short and she still carries her poseur mambo bags she has from her JC days) then at 5.45, she, sharm and jolynn finally got a cab to SRJC (it was a london cab, they took a london cab to the debate!!!!!!)

when she arrived there, mark lim was just beside her, and he didnt realise that it was her until they were entering the lt...ahah he jumped he really jumped...MARK had a reaction!!! =) anyway, most people had a rather big reaction when they saw her...the RI seniors were like "what is wrong with you!!!!! and you know what!!! you dont look a bit your age at all and you look like one of them that is what that is scary!!!!!!!!" and so Tim (my dearest timmy kor kor, *mich can so hear him gulping in embarassment*) proceeds to tell everyone there, "see there is michelle, can you see her" which many cant....heh heh...(oh the barker boys couldnt recognise her either...it was quite hilarious, when they did..they kinda of gave her a look and proceeded to question her why she wasnt in an AC uniform the previous friday).

michelle shant go into boring details about the detail. FAST FORWARDS TO PRESENTATION.

man, the annoucement for top twenty was SCAAAAAAAARY. we sat there, holding hand and praying that we dont hear Nalli, Judith or Bern's name until much later. (Congrats to all of you!!!! i am so happy that you are in top 20!!!!! Nalli you rock!!!!!!!! Judith tooo!!!!! So do Bern!!!!!! third speakers rock man!!!!see you better believe mich next time) and so the name were read out one by one....and we all got more and more excited. and finally he stopped at top 5. phew....nalli's name wasnt there...and then came the usual blah blah blah.....fifth place.....fourth place.....and third....we went mad....clapping for Nalli....(but the funniest part of the whole night was when Chere was annouced as second and the *mad* RI boys went crazy and cheered....cause Suhas was best speaker of the series.) Charlene, Leigh-Anne and Me were holding each other's hand so tightly as Aaron gave the debrief.....and we went mad again when IJ won third!!!! it was the coolest thing to happen........hehe......

*later on the way out, we shouted at tim across the road "TIMMY KOR KOR!!!!" and he stared at me in bewilderment and said "I think the IJ uniform is really getting to you, mich!!!"

Chere, i am so proud of you too!!! muacks!!!!! my little sweetie pie...remember the flowers you gave me they are in my precious debate box as well!!!!

we trooped to Holland V later for dinner at Swensen's and then to Judith's place for a sleepover. at six in the morning, we left the house and headed to ACJC for the IHL Debate Series...

the motions were killer man....killer.....man and i derived sadistic demand looking at the poor j ones struggling to define and debate these killer motions....

but it was painful.....

i fell asleep in the heads room after the debates ended.....i slept for two whole solid hours....two whole hours and we went for SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER.....it was amazing, fabulous, wonderful, totally perfect!!!!!! the dance sequence was like out of this world!!!.....perfectly out of this world.....

haha....seriously my fat ugly friend we should do this more often man and you still owe me a meal....actually more than one given how much you have reneged on it!!!!!

Sunday:
the second round of interviews for DEP....i shall spare people of embarassment. I have to admit that we are the most evil people around and you guys who turned up would rather try out for American Idol and have Simon Cowell rather than us....
actually i felt your pain too....i really did and the rest who came the week before as well....

so concludes three full days of debates and debate related events......*grumbles grumbles.....suffering from debate burnout*

monday, i am a pig i slept and slept and slept and i went to my teacher's house to do stuff and here i am typing my blog...hahah....time to go and read comics and later to mark essays.....hehe.....

you know what i think i am starting to sound incoherent.....hahaha......*big wide smiles to herself and grins like a mad cheshire cat*

before she goes, mich would like to say, I love all of you out there!!!

Char and Char, Nalli, Leigh - Anne, Chere, Sonia, Val, Judith, Bern, Alessa, Sharm, Jol, Grace
All the silly barker boys!!!! ahh

time to read comics seriously...time to read....

You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.


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I Just Don't Like To Be Alone

When I see you out of sight
I don't care to feel all right
I just don't like to be alone
When you walk away from me
Leave this man in misery
I just don't like to be alone

And when I'm holding you
I find the things you do
when I'm with you
I'm not blue , I'm not blue

When I see you out of sight
I don't care to feel all right
I just don't like to be alone
And when I'm holding you
I find the things you do
when I'm with you
I'm not blue , I'm not blue

When I see you out of sight
I don't care to feel all right
I just don't like to be alone
I just don't like to be alone
I just don't like to be alone


too tired to think....too tired to write.....will write a really long long entry tmrw when i am more awake......

HUGS I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! and PLEASE I AM ONLY 15, not any older!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

smiles......i have never been so happy before.

miche:highly eclectic personality:stationery junkie
loves notebooks, the smell of printed-paper and ink makers.
her first love in life is basketball.
enjoys the intellectual adrenaline of debating, the beauty of theatre and music.
loves rainy days and blue skies
an avid reader, collector of teddy bears.
wants to build an dog sanctuary.
finds solitude extremely soothing
loves writing/typing/texting in lower case.
highly interested in the theories of Fredrich Nietzsche and existentialism.
fan of German language and culture.
finds the fact that she is a cusp a unique feature of her life
God, friends, and family feature strongly in her life.
she likes referring to herself in third person, something most of her friends find freaky
has a death wish or so she thinks.


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2. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
3. Human, All too Human - Friedrich Nietzsche
4. The Will to Power - Friedrich Nietzsche
5. Truth and Existence - J.P Sartre
6. Existentialism and Humanism - J.P Sartre
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2. Confession of Pain (Shang Chen)
3. The Protege (Men Tu)
4. The Last Dance

BIRTHDAYS

birthday tree
the boss - 4 Jan
Elvin - 8 Jan
Gill - 10 Jan
WeiXiang - 13 Jan
Sam - 14 Jan
the grosmer - 26 Jan
Aaron - 1 Feb
Ben Yap - 2 Feb
Hiu Tung- 5 Feb
Ja Jung - 7 Feb
Josh Hoe - 8 Feb
Weilin - 13 Feb
Auyong - 20 Feb
Ting ting si - 25 Feb
Jik Han - 28 Feb
Yin - 2 March
Cheryl - 3 March
Christine - 20 March
Kenneth - 21 March
Chere - 26 March
Terence, Judith - 29 March
Meeschell - 30 March
Lex - 1 April
Mishelle - 1 April
Druggie - 7 April
Liz - 16 April
Melissa - 18 April
John Leo - 26 April
Hye Ryoung/the bunny - 30 April
Josh - 13 May
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Kat/Siti - 20 May
Martino - 21 May
Seb/Rebecca - 22 May
Teddy - 23 May
T.K - 27 May
Aidan,Hon - 29 May
Jiajia - 31 May
fairy - 7 June
Cow - 8 June
the poh - 5 july
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Aramis - 21 July
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Thazin - 14 Aug
Gurion - 16 Aug
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Alessa - 25 Aug
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Guy, Jac - 11 Sept
Rachel - 12 Sept
Mi-ran - 14 Sept
the tigger - 15 sept
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Hai Ming - 19 Nov
Sun Min - 26 Nov
Zin Mee - 28 Nov
J Low - 29 Nov
Joy - 5 Dec
Nian Ting - 7 Dec
Luke - 27 Dec
Andy gom/Jhi Sheng - 31 Dec

50 things before miche dies

1. tell all the people she loves, that she loves them dearly.
2. send a personalised note/letter/gift to all her good friends and people who have touched her life, telling them how important they are and how they have made her life worthwhile.
3. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her parents.
4. spend a quiet but meaningful evening with her god-family.
5. save a stray dog or two.
6. travel to prague.
7. give my teddy bears away.
8. try to write a decent poem or short story.
9. pay attention in class for once.
10. learn to forgive herself and those who have perhaps done her wrong.
11. drive to thailand.
12. walk down orchard road dressed in pink and purple only.
13. picnic by the beach
14. finish reading "dreams of the red chamber" in chinese
15. get the giant teddy bear i always wanted.
16. perform one last time
17. buy a dress / skirt
18. watch a cheesy, tacky, gawdy comedy - BRUNO or TROPIC THUNDER
19. pat a snake
20. throw a party on a bus
21. sky dive and bungee jump
22. walk all around singapore - halfway there
23. eat nothing but vegetables for a week - kinda stop eating
24. burn all her photos, diaries and letters. delete this blog.
25. cry with all her might
26. be happy and try to stay happy till the end
27. be amazed by the simple things in life
28. sleep at least 8 hours per day and not more than 10 for a week
29. write a letter to johnny depp
30. plant something
31. be a organ donor, give whatever can still be used. (not my liver though, too much alcohol in it)
32. get blind drunk, like seriously blind drunk
33. draw/paint/compose a last picture
34. she hates taking pictures, but yeah, take a picture with all her loved ones.
35. be totally ladylike for a whole day. (i.e. dont swear, curse or be mean)
36. cycle to changi and back.
37. attend church everyday
38. take all the bus services available in singapore
39. get 2 tattoos
40. buy cup noodles and eat them by the roadside. well i ate by the beach, doesnt count right
41. colour her hair in multi-hues
42. draw up a will
43. climb a tree
44. remember to smile.
45. compete in one last basketball tournament
46. debate competitively one last time
47. eat all the gelato she wants
48. eat all the dairy products she wants
49. celebrate the life that's been
50. Thank God.
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